Page 116 of Malice
Avro, I want you to know that I really do love you. You have a special heart, and you took the time that no one else did to understand me. You made me feel like I wasn’t a walking scar that everyone would see and pity. I cannot even explain to you what that means to me.
And I’m sorry to go like this, but I had to. I just couldn’t look you in the eye and do what I needed to.
Jace, I hate to say it, but you were right about one thing. Kai is never going to stop. I’m not sure what it would take to stop him, but no matter what, I would never put the two of you at risk. I did hear you. Please know our time, as short as it was, was very special to me.
I love you so much, Avro, and I know in time I would’ve loved you too, Jace.
The issue is that I still love Kai, even all these years later. I’m responsible for destroying his life and turning him into the enraged man who drove off the rails. He used to be so different and was someone the two of you would’ve liked. Now I don’t recognize him, and that scares me.
It’s time I start a new adventure, and maybe one day, our stars will realign.
Raine
I read the letter for a second time, my body shaking. No, this is not happening. I wasn’t allowing that asshole to run her off. Letter in hand, I stomped down the steps to the car and flipped through the web search engine until I found what I needed—the dilapidated amusement park that sat next door to the motorcycle club.
Putting the car in gear, I drove to the old amusement park I’d been to many times as a kid. It used to be a huge attraction, and I had great memories of making out with Jace in a few dark corners. The top of the Ferris wheel had been highly entertaining. I felt free up there, with no one around to see or judge us.
I wasn’t letting this guy destroy my life. I’d paid my dues on the wheel of fucked up. My hands clenched the steering wheel as I pushed the car much faster than I should on these streets, but I had one mission, and the blue-eyed motorcycle-riding fuckpot was it.
I pulled into the Lost Souls driveway as the gates were opening. Four bikes were getting ready to leave. They all had their hands behind their backs, waiting to see if the black car with tinted windows was a threat.
Putting my window down, I yelled. “Don’t shoot. I’m just here to see Kai.”
“Who the fuck is Kai?” one guy asked. I couldn’t see who said it, but someone shouted back.
“Snake, you idiot. Get going. I’ll meet you soon.”
The three bikes peeled out. I took that as a good sign and slowly got out of the car.
“Roach, right?” I asked the guy as he cut the engine on his bike.
He leaned forward and looked me up and down. “Yeah, you got the name right. Are you fucking stupid, lost, or do you have a death wish?” Roach asked, and my back bristled.
“I need to speak to Kai.”
Roach’s eyebrow cocked upward. “Death wish, it is.” Roach sat up and pointed toward the amusement park. “He has a house on the other side of that. Good luck. You’re going to need it.” Roach waited until I got back in my car and pulled out before starting his bike.
It was easy enough to find the long driveway with the weed-covered overgrowth he called a lawn.
Pulling up to the house, I got out and jogged up the porch. My fist banged hard on the door as I yelled Kai’s name.
The door whipped open, and we glared at one another. He looked like he was ready for bed with jogging pants on. It was nice to see that his face looked as beat up as ours did.
“What the fuck do you want?” His hand flexed into a fist, and I pointedly looked at it.
“You gonna hit me?”
“Depends on why you’re here,” he said. “How exactly did you find my place?”
“Wouldn’t you like to know?”
Kai’s eyes narrowed as he glared.
“She’s gone, and it’s your fucking fault,” I said before he could argue some more.
His eyebrows shot up. “What?”
I pulled the letter from my pocket and tossed it at Kai. He snatched it out of the air and slowly unfolded it. I waited until he had time to read it all before I spoke.
