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But I was wide-awake, and out of my trance now, with sparkling knowledge of my deeds.
I had seen Sani's face and surely, she had felt miserable as hell.
The moment, the lecture had finished, and everyone started leaving the class, I had called out to Sani. I needed to apologize to her and the best time to do so was when everyone else were about to leave.
To my heart piercing shock, though Sani did not turn, I could very well hear her controlled sob as she sprang off her desk in front of me, in her attempt to fly out of the classroom.
I brought her down to tears. That is the last straw. How could I?!
I kept cursing myself, punching my fist on the table. I knew why this horrible incident had happened...Why such a devastating mistake occurred on my part. It was just because I could not get her out of my mind. Try as I might! But I had to admit, what happened today was wrong and inexcusable. I needed to try harder to stop thinking about her. Even if it meant, she went farther away from me in the process.
A few days later-
Sani had not come to college since that incident. It meant only one thing; I had hurt her far more than I thought.
If she does not make an appearance, how am I going to apologize to her? I do not even have her phone number. What do I do now?
My reverie broke by Grandma's soft voice,
“What is it Son? You seem tense. You have not even touched your food yet. What's going on?”
We were both sitting at the dining table to eat dinner. But only she was eating, while I remained engrossed in my problems.
“I am just thinking about Sa...I mean no one. Actually, Gran, a few days back I met a friend of Zidaan's. Now I need to talk to him, but I don't even have his number. That day we met coincidently.” I told her stumbling to hide the truth.
She gave me a reassuring smile,
“So what is there to think about? Just give a call to Zidaan and ask him for his friend’s number. After all, Zidaan won't refuse you.”
‘Yes of course, why would he refuse to give me Sani’s number if I tell him the stupidity I committed and broke her heart? He would just punch me and will be after my blood. That’s all.’ I thought sarcastically to myself.
Though smiling and nodding at Granny on the outside. I was in even more of a tensed state internally. I would have to figure this shit out...soon.
Excusing myself from dinner, I went inside my bedroom and dialled the only person I could discuss this with...
‘You promised you would help.’ I said the moment he answered my call.
He chuckled,
‘Yup, I did. Of course, I’ll help. Let’s meet up soon and think of some plan.’
‘We have waited too long.’ I beseeched, going frustrated to the length of pulling my hair.
He scoffed,
‘It has barely been weeks since the party you guys met in. But from your desperate tone it seems like you have already tried and failed. Why are you hurrying things here? Just relax!’
‘You said she is seeing someone! And we are nowhere near finding out whom.’ I argued trying to keep my voice in check.
‘I thought you wanted to be friends with her first.’ His voice turned curious and slightly suspicious.
‘I do!’ I admitted defensively.
‘So be her friend. If she is seeing someone or not is something, we will find out eventually. Don't worry.’
‘I'm trying to be her friend, but...’ I hesitated, closing my eyes wishing to hit myself.
‘But?’ He prompted.
