Page 71 of Kat Bethel
My breathing stopped as if waiting on the answer, but this time instead of an answer, nausea made my organs feel like they were being smothered.
Answer the question. Just to yourself. No one else has to know.
But inside was painfully quiet. It made me want to squirm.
No. It made me want to run and never look back.
Admit the truth. You aren’t who you thought you were.
Fresh tears fell from my eyes, and my hands shook.
The answer hovered right there in my mind, but…
I can’t deal with this.
I could answer the uncomfortable question. Which would lead to a worse question, with a worse answer.
Or I could make everything stop.
My next breath came easier even as my heart throbbed with agony.
Don’t do it. You always regret it.
“Dandelion?” The first inkling of doubt filled his voice.
He’d crawled under my skin and fucked everything up.
This was his fault.
“I know what to do.”
Once I did this, I couldn’t take it back.
Chapter 26:
Ididn’tthink.
Just moved.
I weaved through traffic recklessly. The sooner I completed the better. There wasn’t time for second thoughts.
Tears poured from my eyes, but I ignored the way my vision blurred. If I crashed, that was even better. At least it would be over.
My phone rang back to back from Willow. No doubt she felt the storm inside me, the empath that she was. She’d talk me down.
Not today.
She overrode my phone, answering it herself and putting it on speaker. She must have hacked my phone after my suicide attempt. “Sasha! Get a hold of yourself.”
Horns blared as I cut the umpteenth person off.
“Are you driving!? You know you can’t drive when you get like this.”Fear radiated her voice. “Pull over.”
I couldn’t answer. I couldn’t tell her I already did. That the time when she could have talked me down had passed.
“You are going to hurt innocent people. Have you burned any lemon balm before going on whatever suicide mission you’re on?”She reminded me, but the sign on the side of the road said I was only two miles away.
Two miles away from relief.
