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“Jesusfuuuuuckin’ Christ, Vic,” Johnny swore as Victor got to work swallowing him down, his hands scrambling to grab something before one fisted the collar of Victor’s shirt and the other took a handful of his hair.He didn’t yank at Victor, at least not yet, but his grip wasn’t exactly gentle either.Victor responded in turn, using his free hand to grab Johnny’s balls and squeeze them until Johnny started swearing again.
Victor didn’t time himself, but he didn’t need to have a stopwatch to know he’d done pretty well in the short period it took Johnny to orgasm.It wasn’t as quick as Victor’s calf roping, but he’d had less practice at this than calf roping in the last two years.He decided swallowing was the best course of action, a decision Johnny made mandatory when he forced Victor deeper than ever onto his dick using a handful of hair.Victor didn’t much care for deep throating, but for Johnny, he’d do anything.Thankfully Johnny released him soon after, and Victor yanked back, sucking in deep breaths and trying not to cough as his eyes watered.He was not going to win any awards for his throat skills, but no one could fault him for lack of trying.
“Fuck,” Johnny exclaimed, staggering back against the opposite wall of the trailer.“Fuck,Vic.”
Victor wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and climbed to a wobbly stand, using the cabinet for balance.Johnny put himself back into his jeans, eyes darting down Victor’s torso.Shit.He’d probably notice Victor had no erection.Hell, Victor wasn’t even wearing a packer.He typically didn’t.They only got in the way when he rode.He folded his hands in front of himself and hoped that hid enough.
Victor should have told him the truth right then, because he didn’t want to come off as some kind of deceiver.He knew how hysterical cis people could get being “tricked” into sex with trans people.However, there was no great way to broach the topic, especially immediately after a blowjob.The time to come clean had probably beenbeforehe put Johnny’s dick in his mouth.
“This whole situation is just…” Johnny trailed off, then rubbed his face with a hand.His lips were slightly swollen, and Victor had to clench and unclench his fists to resist the urge to kiss him again.Johnny opened his mouth to speak, but his phone went off in his back pocket, and he fumbled to grab it.When he answered, the voice on the other line was loud enough to be heard even without being in speaker mode.
“Where the fuck are you?It’s been like half an hour since you ditched us,” came Sarah’s irritated voice.
“Oh, ah, I went to check in with Vic.I told you that.”
Great.Now Sarah knew Victor was queer, too.Victor just had to hope she wasn’t a gossip.It wasn’t like they shared the same social circles, but she did probably know Johnny’s sister.
“What are you two doing, sucking each other off?The rodeo’s over and I’m waiting by my car for you.”
Johnny pressed his lips tightly together as Victor snorted and hid his mouth behind a hand to muffle his laughter.
“I’ll be there in five minutes,” Johnny promised, sharing a smirk with Victor.
“Better be.It’s getting cold out here.”Sarah ended the call, and Johnny chuckled.
“I think she may be on to me,” Johnny said.
“Does she know that you’re…” Victor started to ask, then considered reframing the question until Johnny answered it, or at least attempted to.
“I’ve never told her, but maybe she’s startin’ to wonder,” Johnny replied.“I guess I’ll, uh, get goin’ then.”Johnny took a step toward the trailer door, then paused, sheepishly glancing at Victor.
“Thank you, then.I appreciated the enthusiasm.”He threw open the door, took a step out, then leaned back in.“Next time I’ll try to reciprocate, if you’re up for it.”
Next time.Victor’s heart fluttered at the thought.“I’ll look forward to it.”
CHAPTER 15
It had been so long since Victor had even been on a date—let alone sucked someone off—that he had no clue how to act or think the next morning.He looked at his phone to see if Johnny had texted him.He had not.Was that bad?What did it mean?Did Victor just fuck up their whole relationship because he was a bit too eager to show Johnny a good time?
He hadn’t gotten home until midnight the night before, so he was late getting out of bed.Typically he was out at the barn by seven, but this morning he didn’t make it out until eight-thirty.On Sundays it was typically just him and Hannah, though it looked like Hannah hadn’t yet done the rounds, because no one was fed.Victor decided to do it himself.That ate up an hour of his time before he moved onto training.All the while, Victor kept checking his phone, wishing Johnny would text him.
At this point Victor realized he should take the initiative and do it himself, but he felt like he’d done Johnny the favor by sucking his dick without the courtesy of a reach around.If their roles had been reversed, Victor definitely would have texted him by now, at least to thank him for the fun.Maybe Victor wasn’t as good at sucking dick as he thought.Then he scoffed out loud and rolled his eyes.Men did not have high standards for these things, and he doubted Johnny did either.In rural Oklahoma, you took whatever it was you got.
Victor headed out to do some grocery shopping, and when he got back he was halfway through making dinner when his phone finally vibrated.He rushed to grab it and unlock it, hoping it was Johnny.It was, but the message wasn’t exactly the one he’d been hoping for.
Will bring Taylor down after school for lesson tomorrow.That ok?
Victor stared at his phone a moment, halfway between anger and bafflement.It was in his nature to be accommodating and professional, so he respondedThat’s finelike nothing had changed between them.In response, Johnny sent a thumbs up emoji.That was it.
“I hate men so much,” Victor said aloud to himself in his empty kitchen.With a long, aggravated sigh, he called Skyler.She picked up, thankfully, and seemed to be in a chipper mood.
“What’s up, dude?”she asked.“Something happen?”
Victor explained the whole night, though he left out the blowjob detail.Not because he thought Skyler would be scandalized but because he thought it made him seem kind of desperate, and he was feeling a creeping sense of shame about offering up sexual favors so quickly.
“So he’s into guys.I told you that you should have asked,” Skyler said.
“Should I text him?Call him?I don’t know how to go about this.”
