Page 8 of Don't Date Your Ex Best Friend
You must be wondering why I pushed you yesterday when you told me to take some rest after a long evening with Eveline.I wanted to save my virginity till marriage, even though I know how cliché it sounds.The feeling of becoming one soul with a person you love, cherish, worship, the one you call husband.Cherishing each other’s bodies, not because of lust, but because of love.
Ethan, I was ready to give up my virginity to you, rather than anyone else.I was ready.Far more than ready, physically and emotionally.But when you said that you wanted me to take a rest, the sick part of me thought you don’t like me that way.Or didn’t want to have sex with me.
Everything came crumbling down and all I could think about was the negative part of it.I couldn’t see that you really cared about me, and not just because of my body.
But fuck me for having a mini anxiety attack.It’s three in the morning right now and I can hear you shuffling in your room.I could hear Eveline cry faintly and without even seeing you, I know you are holding her in your arms and soothing her to sleep.
I don’t regret anything that happened between the two of us, E.I really hope you feel the same.
Love,
Kiara
CHAPTERTWENTY
17th August, Friday
I can’t believe we had sex.Wow.I still feel that it was all just a dream.Let me pinch myself?—
Well, it was real.I mean, we stayed up all night.Having sex, cuddling, laughing, dizzy talking.To be honest, the first time was a little uncomfortable, but soon we practiced enough to know why the world was so obsessed with sex.It was so euphoric and you lose calories without working out!
But I hated how you teased me on my weird penguin walk.My, oh my, was I sore?Still, it was a good kind of sore.Not painfully sore, if you know what I mean.I am rambling, sorry.
If I said I loved you before then, I think I am more than in love with you after yesterday.The rose, the ‘I am Jedi!’lightning neon condom, your main purpose to make me comfortable, making me laugh and your gentleness after we did the deed, everything you did makes my heart flutter.
I am made for your love, Ethan Kane.
Love,
Kiara
CHAPTERTWENTY-ONE
20th August, Monday
I won’t apologize for not writing daily because I can’t keep up with a routine—you of all people know that.
Seems like we all are hiding secrets from each other.
But my question to you is that, are you keeping it a secret to protect me?Because you know why I kept all this shit from you, to protect you.From me.
I don’t think you are protecting me by hiding it.I can see the wordsslutwritten on my locker, E.You can’t just go around punching every guy who passed by my locker.But it’s okay.They are just words and I am fine with it.
You don’t have to do anything about it.I am fine.
Love,
Kiara
CHAPTERTWENTY-TWO
25th August, Saturday
Did I ever mention that you would make a great boyfriend?Not that we are in a relationship, but I could tell from eighteen years of us being best friends ...and doing other deeds.
Yeah, just wanted to get that out.I’ll get back to cuddling you because you’re already whining in your sleep.Even though you’re three times my size, I don’t mind being the bigger spoon, just saying.
Love,
