I didn’t say anything, not sure what to say.
What? No more excuses?
Cav sighed. “Why don’t we just let it happen? Enjoy the evening. Answer her questions, Edge. I know you’re tryin’ to map it out, but it won’t work.”
He’s right. You can’t. Not this time.
“Okay.”
His shock was evident. “Really?”
I smiled. “Really.”
His face softened, his smirk appearing. “Okay, then. Let’s see where it goes.”
Cav got to his feet but before he could reach the door, I stopped him, spun him around, and got right up in his face. “Don’t think I’m through with you yet, either. Tonight may be about her, but I’ve got plans for you, too.”
“I’m ready whenever you are,” he whispered, his eyes locked with mine.
I fully intended to move back, but I couldn’t help myself. I leaned in, gripped his jaw in my hand, then crushed my mouth to his. I think it shocked me as much as him, but it didn’t stop either of us. I swallowed Cav’s surprise, met his tongue with my own, and let the kiss ignite.
When we came up for air, neither of us said anything. Words weren’t necessary. One way or the other, this would play out. How was yet to be seen.
Jamie
MY NERVES WERE CLANGING SO LOUDLY, I WAS surprised Edge and Cav couldn’t hear them from the other room. While I wasn’t sure what was going on behind that closed door, I was a little grateful for the few minutes I had to calm myself down.
While I tried to relax, I took in the space. The apartment was nice. Open, airy, a lot of high-end finishes. The furniture wasn’t pretentious. Soft, buttery leather covered the sofa and the armchair that sat at an angle beside it. A large entertainment wall was decked out with wood and glass to go along with the giant television mounted to the wall.
My mind wandered back to the reason I was there. It wasn’t that I was afraid of what was going to happen tonight. I was actually looking forward to it. I just hadn’t given much thought to where this might lead. After tonight.
I knew that sex was a huge part of BDSM, and I was questioning whether or not I was ready. My body said yes without question. My mind, on the other hand, wasn’t quite sure. Since I’d never allowed my hormones to be in charge of my decisions, this was a first for me.
Of course, my heart had a say in the matter, as well, but I was doing my best to ignore it. The one thing I’d learned from my brother where BDSM was concerned … the heart must remain guarded at all times. I fully intended to keep that vital organ shielded as much as possible.
Then again, I could’ve been getting ahead of myself. Who said anything would happen? Who even said sex would be involved? I mean, I’d read plenty of scenes that didn’t involve penetration of any kind. Perhaps that was what they were planning. After all, there were a lot of logistics involved in BDSM. Contracts, safe words, rules, etc. Maybe that was what we would delve into.
“God, I hope not,” I muttered to myself.
If I was being completely honest, I wasn’t interested in the technicalities. That wouldn’t have been the case a week ago. Then again, a week ago I hadn’t gone out with them, hadn’t spent time with my lips melded to theirs. My thoughts instantly shifted to the night in Cav’s truck, the way he had teased my breast with his hot mouth… That was what I wanted. I wanted to be reckless, to let this out-of-control feeling free. I wanted the experience. And not merely the BDSM aspect, although I definitely wanted to explore that avenue.
The door opened and Edge appeared, successfully pulling me from my wandering thoughts. He shoved his hand through his hair, then rasped it down over his face as he approached.
“Is something wrong?” I felt as though I’d asked that too many times tonight.
“No, sweetness. Not at all.”
Just like the other times he’d referred to me that way, my body warmed from the inside out.
“What movie would you like to watch?”
I stared at him as though he’d grown two heads.
I didn’t know exactly what I’d expected him to say, but it certainly wasn’t that. Part of me had thought they were in that room setting up a scene. Getting their equipment ready.
“Movie?” Edge smirked. “I’ve ordered the pizza. It’ll be here shortly.”
Pizza and a movie.
So he’d been serious? That was okay.
He nodded toward my glass. “Would you like more wine?”
“Sure.”
I watched as he reached for my glass, then wandered back toward the kitchen.
“What movie did you decide on?” Cav prompted when he walked into the room.
I stared at him, not sure what to say to that. It was a simple question. One any idiot should’ve been able to answer, but I seemed to be at a loss for words.
