Page 125 of When She Loves
Because he doesn’t think I’m worth all this. Did I ever really believe he’d think I’m good enough? No one else ever has. All those things he said to me about being his ideal wife were probably just to get me into his bed.
I give my head a shake. No, even in my current state, I know that isn’t true. This was more than sex. Things were going well between us.
Maybe Rafaele thought they were goingtoowell.
When he told me he didn’t love anyone, he uttered “love” like it was a dirty word.
I wrap my arms around myself. “He said he can’t be the don he needs to be with me around. Even if he does feel something for me, I don’t think he wants to. He won’t let himself love anyone.”
Gemma shakes her head. “He’s making a huge mistake. Why don’t you try to talk to him again?”
His words echo inside my brain.I’ve said everything I need to say.
“He’s gone. He’s trying to figure out what to do about Nero. He told me he wants me out of the house, and that I should go to Italy with you.”
Vale’s expression crumples. “Oh, Cleo. I’m sorry.”
I wipe my nose with the back of my hand and huff out a breath. Should I try to talk to him one more time? No, he made his position clear. But what if he just needs a bit of time to cool down?
I huff bitterly at the thought. Rafe needing time to cool down. Who would have thought we’d end up here?
“I want to rest for a bit. I’m exhausted.” I get up from the sofa. “Will you stay here until I talk to him again?”
“Of course,” Gemma says. “We’ll be in the living room. I’ll go ask Luca to bring you a snack.”
Food is the last thing on my mind, but I nod anyway. “Thanks.”
Upstairs, I make it to our bed and fall onto it face first. My soul hurts. Everything hurts.
When I woke up after my father jabbed me with a sedative, I was scared and disoriented. I didn’t know what was going on, and it was awful. But somehow even that felt less horrible than this. If Papà’s men had killed me, at least I would have died with a clear conscience. But now? How can I live with Nero’s death on my hands?
There has to be something Rafaele can do to stop it from happening. He’s clever and capable. He has to find a way to keep Nero alive.
There’s a knock on the door.
“Come in.”
Luca comes in with a tray of food. When he sees my puffy face, his expression falls. “I’m sorry, signora.”
“It’s okay, Luca. Just put that over there.” I gesture at the coffee table by the ottoman.
Just before he leaves again, he pauses by the door. “It’ll be okay. This too shall pass.”
I give him a weak smile. I’m not even sure he knows what’s at stake, but I appreciate him trying to make me feel better. “Thanks, Luca.”
He leaves, and I pick a bit at the food. I haven’t eaten since lunch, but I’m not hungry. How can I be when my stomach is in knots?
An hour passes. I stare at my wedding band. I should take it off. Leave it on the nightstand for Rafaele to find when he gets home. I wrap my fingers around it.
Take it off.
Do it.
I can’t. I sigh and tip my head back.Fuck.
My phone is a few feet away from me on the bed. I pick it up, pull up my texts with Rafaele, and write a message.
When will you be home? Can we talk? Please?
