Page 89 of Filth: An Erotic Daddy Dom Romance
CHAPTER 52
‘’No Taylor please’’ he said swiftly placing his foot in the door when I tried to shut it on him.
‘’Leave Hudson. I don’t want to see you’’ I said turning my back on him, but could already feel my eyes stinging hard from the soul shattering pain of how much my heart missed him.
‘’I can’t do that baby, I’ve been going out of my mind with worry trying to find you’’ he said, and I squeezed my eyes shut trying to fight back the tears ready to fall, as Hudson slowly came up behind me and wrapped me in his arms hugging me tight.
‘’You once told me: If I’m with you I’ll always be okay’’ he said smoothing his face softly across my hair, as the lump in my throat hardened and the tears began to fall.
‘’It was the truth, but I guess everything in life has an expiration date to it’’
‘’Don’t say that, please baby, don’t say that’’ he said turning me around slowly, and I feared looking in his eyes right now would break me from the inside out, from the heavy hurt I knew was in them.
‘’Look at me Taylor, please baby look at me…’’ he said, softly tilting my chin up towards him, and as I predicted everything inside me fell apart when seeing his face. He looked just as broken by heartache as I was, and I instantly regret my prompt actions in leaving him…but not the reason that made me do it.
‘’You hurt me’’ I said tearing up now before his eyes ’’maybe not directly Hudson, but you did’’
‘’I know beautiful, I know, and I am so so sorry about that horrid article. I never meant for anything like that to happen, not ever, you have to believe me sweetheart’’ he said gently cupping my face in his hands, and looking down deep in my eyes for my hopeful understanding ‘’it was a mistake I know, I see that now. I of course wish I hadn’t but we just got to talking I guess, and I somehow ended up shari-’’
‘’Sharing a part of my life I shared with you in confidence Hudson, and my innocence in private’’ I said looking up so hurt at him, as every pained emotion felt when first seeing that article, now all came rushing back to the surface and out my eyes in a sting of hot tears ‘’you broke every trust I ever had in you’’ I told him disappointedly.
His head instantly hung low in shame, and it pained me even further seeing the heavy hurt mirrored in his eyes when he raised it again, but I needed him to understand the reason why I left.
‘’I am sorry Taylor, whether you believe me or don’t, I really and truly am sorry baby. I in no way intended to ever have your feelings hurt like that, and I would take it all back in a New York minute if I could. That’s why I’m here…’’ he said, lightly reaching his hand out to me and smoothing his fingers down my damp hair ‘’after seven lonely days and nights searching the entire city for you, I finally found you here tonight. But know sweetheart that I never would have stopped looking, because I both care for and miss you very very much Taylor. And if you let me, I would like please the chance to explain my side of what happened. You deserve that much at least’’ he said, gently taking my hand in his and kissing the top of it softly.
‘’I’m listening’’ I said looking at him.
‘’Can we sit? I need to explain everything properly to you’’ he said, and I took his hand and sat him on the corner of the bed with me.
HUDSON POV:
‘’Wow, where do I even start’’ I said, my mind thinking back to all the hate thrown at me from Skipp, only to discover in the end that what Taylor had once innocently predicted about him, was in fact the awful truth ‘’First and foremost you are not ‘just a nobody’ like the media hungry hounds said. Regardless of what people think or have been falsely informed with, you’re not, never were, and will never be a ‘nobody’ to me. Aside from my mom, you mean more to me Taylor than anyone ever has, and it kills me knowing my reckless actions have hurt you so badly’’ I said lightly resting my hand on her knee, and leaning my face close to hers with a soft kiss to her cheek ‘’that entire article and the foul-mouthed language used in it just sickened me to my stomach. And I sit before you both shamed and humiliated at having read such words on the app I created’’ I sighed miserably ‘’I myself didn’t even find out until arri-‘’
‘’Seriously Hudson, what did you think would happen?’’ she said cutting me off looking at me sternly ‘’she obviously still has feelings for you, so did it really surprise you that she’d try and sabotage our relationship like this??’’ she exclaimed.
‘’Who? Jessica?’’
‘’Yes, Jessica. I saw you and her talking outside the night of the Dome party when you supposedly were going to the restroom’’ she said looking pointedly at me ‘’…I neglected to tell you that part in case you maybe thought I was spying on you or something, which I wasn’t. Truth is I’d actually been out back on the balcony at the time, snapping what extra pictures I could of the beautiful Dome’’
‘’I see’’ I said looking a little uncomfortable now, just praying to god she hadn’t seen the attempted pass Jessica had tried making on me the moment we stepped outside, as I wasn’t emotionally equipped right now to try and explain that one without causing her further emotional hurt.
‘’I’m guessing that’s when you told her all about me then’’ she said folding her arms coldly across her chest.
‘’I never told Jessica anything, I swea-’’
‘’Oh don’t lie to me Hudson, how else would the tabloids have learned my story if you didn’t tell her? And I know it was her from the pleasant choice of words insulted at me, both in the restroom and in that article, the ones calling me a ‘gold digging whore’’
‘’Baby, I really am sorry you were labeled something so disgusting and cruel’’ I said clenching my jaw tight in anger ‘’but it wasn’t Jessica’s words who said that in the article…it was Skipp’s’’
‘’Skipp’’ she said closing her eyes with seethed anger then opening them again ‘’smh, why am I not surprised. I should have known the albino snake had something to do with it’’ she scoffed ‘’never turn your back on a snake’’ she then muttered under her breath.
‘’You’re right about that…interestingly in more ways than one. I’ll um, explain another time’’ I said quickly ‘’either way sweetheart, I truly truly didn’t mean for things to turn out the way they did. And I am here begging your forgiveness back because I miss you baby, I miss you so much!’’ I could hear my voice break with all the emotion I was feeling, but I sucked it up and carried on because I both wanted and needed Taylor to understand just how much my heart cared for her ‘’…and would like the chance to continue showing you just how much I care for you if you let me’’
‘’If you care for me as much as you say you do Hudson, best friend or not, why did you tell anyone my private affairs when I distinctly asked you not to?! I have nothing to hide, but understandably a lot to be humiliated by. And there I was trying to blend into your world, and make something decent of myself as you encouraged me I could do. Only to have all that I wanted kept hidden in the past, horribly exposed by your ill-disposed best friend Skipp’’ she frowned very disappointedly at me, and I cursed the ground I walked on for ever opening up to that jackass.
‘’I know nothing I can say will make things better at this time, but at least hear out my truth…that being I was having an innocent in-the-moment conversation, with someone whom I thought at the time really was my best friend. I was honestly so rejoiced with happiness that I’d met you Taylor, and that we finally were a couple - which secretly was all I ever wished for when realizing my deepened feelings for you, that I in a way didn’t care who it was who heard me, I just wanted to sing it from the rooftops’’
She looked at me with a small smile, and I could see from her eyes part of her understood.
