Page 102 of Saved By A Dark Billionaire
If ever there were a time I wish I had a phone, it would be now! I feel my heart is breaking into a million pieces. I don't want to lose him. I don't want to watch the most amazing thing in my life leave. High school is going to be unbearable without him here.
Do we still talk a lot with Ian now? Is he still our friend?
A very disappointed Past You
So that's what happened to Ian. He moved. It wasn't that they had a falling out, or some kind of argument. It wasn't that Ian was secretly a dick. No, it was circumstances outside of their control that separated them. What would she do if he suddenly entered her life again? What if they one day run into each other? Would she fall for his charms? Would she leave me for him?
"What's got your panties in a bunch?" Leo's voice snapped me out of my inner spiral.
"Why you, of course, you're so hot, Leo," I joked, because I refuse to voice these insecurities. I know they're irrational.
"Mhmm." He rolled his eyes. "Seriously though, what's up with you?"
"Reading her journals and getting mad at her dad. She told us her childhood was hard, but she didn't go into specifics. It's killer, Leo. I hate knowing that man raised her." I shook my head, with my hands gripping the journal tightly.
"I can only imagine. I hate that she didn't have this beautiful upbringing like I had hoped when I asked for her life story. Honestly, I think that's why you guys fit so perfectly. You have shared trauma, and as such, think in a lot of the same ways."
"You think so?" I am sure he's right, but I had never thought of it.
"Definitely. You're both dark and twisty."
"So what are you, then? Dark and bendy?" I laughed.
"No, I'm light and airy." He smiled.
"You should be. You deserve to be light and airy."
"Don't go getting soft on me. This is usually when you tease me." He arched a brow at me.
"I know that. I just…" I sighed, pausing for a moment. "I want you to be happy, Leo. I feel so lucky to have Olive in my life, but then I see you and feel kind of guilty, you know? I want you to find your person, too." Leo kicked my shin under the table, making me lift my leg up fast, causing me to hit my knee with the table.
"Ow, what the fuck, Leo?"
"Quit feeling sorry for me and enjoy your happiness. Of all the people I know, you're the one that deserves it. I'll find my person. I'm only 19, I have time. Maybe I'll have some fun for a little bit, and gain some experience like you did." He wiggled his eyebrows at me, making me crack a smile.
"Oh? Am I your role model, Leo?" I laughed. Teasing him has always been my favorite thing to do. It's how we show we love one another, cracking jokes at the other's expense.
"In fact, you are." His confession caught me off guard. I assumed he would joke or tease me. Instead, he made me feel important.
"Then, as your role model, let me tell you a secret." I leaned forward, looking all around us like someone was listening in. Leo leaned forward as well, getting closer so he could hear me better. "I'm the best lay there is, so if you want to learn from the best, you're gonna have to sleep with me." I blew him a kiss with a wink, causing him to roll his eyes. I laughed at him as usual.
"Ass," he muttered, but I could see the corner of his lips trying to fight off his smile.
"No, but seriously, don't go having too much fun. It gets old fast and only makes you feel lonelier." I added, being serious for once, because the last thing I want is for Leo to go down the same path as me.
"Don't worry, you may be my role model, but I'm not looking to be exactly like you. I like myself better." He winked, making me smile playfully at him.
Leo's always been easy to talk to. Someone that has always made me smile. I love playing around with him, and spending time together. He's the closest friend I have. The one who understands me better than even my own family. I hope that he's happy. I know taking over his father's business has been hard on him. I can see it starting to suck away his soul. I need him to find happiness somewhere to counteract it. I need him and Rachel to finally admit their feelings.How did I not notice it before?Another reason why I love my Rose. She's so attentive.
"When you are ready to find that girl, let me know. I'll help you." I offered, having Rachel fully in mind.
"I don't know if I want any of your sloppy seconds." He arched his brow.
"Never. Don't want them to compare us." I winked at him, joking around as always.
"Asshole," he muttered, kicking me under the table again.
"We need to get back into soccer. You still have a mean kick."
