Page 121 of Saved By A Dark Billionaire
Goodbye and sorry for the mess.
I think my heart stopped. Was this a suicide note? Did my Rose feel so alone she…I can't even say it. I felt tears stream down my face as I hugged the journal.Not my Rose. I grabbed my phone, needing to hear her voice. Did she go through with it? Did she attempt to take her life?
"Hello?" her beautiful voice answered.
"We need to talk," I said, a bit too sternly.
"What's wrong?" I could hear the concern in her voice.
"Rose, what is this entry in your junior year journal?"
"You know you're going to have to be more specific. There's quite a few of them." She laughed, but I didn't find it comical.
"The one that tore my heart out. Tell me you didn't go through with it. Tell me you wrote it down, and changed your mind after."
The line grew silent aside from her breathing.
"I did it." She sounded so small as she admitted her dark truth.
"Rose!" I couldn't help myself. "How could you?"
"I was young and alone. Life was dark and hopeless then, Lucas. You don't understand."
I've frowned on suicide all my life, but more so since losing Ivy and John. They didn't choose to die. They had their life stolen from them. Then there's people who take life for granted, permitting themselves the easy way out, because they can't take it anymore. It's unfair to those of us they leave behind.
"I know it wasn't okay. I'm not saying it was. I'm telling you why I did it." She sighed as she spoke. I could hear the sadness in her voice.
"You're not alone anymore," I reminded her.
"I know, I'm fine now, Lucas. I got help after."
"Rose, I'm sorry you ever felt so alone."
"I know," she sighed. "I'm sorry you read that. I forgot it was in there."
"I love you so much, Rose!"
"I love you too. So very much!"
"Good, because I'm never leaving you alone. You'll never feel alone again." Even if she broke up with me and sent me away, I would bother the hell out of her to make sure she never felt alone. Not in a mean way, of course, an annoying way…my way.
"I'll hold you to that." The smile had returned to her voice again.
“So tell me, what are you up to today?"
"I am going to Ian's house to see his mom and dad again. I've missed them. Mrs. Daniels invited me to stay for dinner, so I'll probably end up staying there all evening. I'll head back home tomorrow morning. What about you?"
"We're going skiing this evening, and then Lisa said she was going to cook dinner, so wish me luck. I may die tonight." I joked, hearing her laugh.I love her laugh.
"I'll pray for you," she teased.
"I miss you."
"I miss you, too. I am ready to be back home with you." She doesn't know this, but I plan to surprise her on Thanksgiving day. We're only here till Wednesday night. I'll be back in time to celebrate with her and be thankful for her.
"Me too, Rose."
"I'm at Ian's now. I better go, but I love you. Have fun skiing. Don't forget the sunblock."
