Page 187 of Malice and Surrender
“You feel so fucking good,” Kai groaned. Leaning down. I kissed him slowly, pouring everything I was feeling into the kiss. He moaned softly, his arms wrapping around my body, and I pressed myself into his warmth.
“Thank you.” My voice was breathy and filled with hope. My lips brushed against his as I took advantage of this sweeter moment between us. “You don’t know what this means to me,” I said, and his arms tightened.
“I love you, Tink. One thing Jace and I have in common is that I will also do anything for those I love, and that is you.” Smiling, I used my fingers to turn Kai’s head to the side. “What are you doing?”
“I’m marking what’s mine,” I said and loved how Kai shivered as my lips touched his neck and I began to suck. I was so engrossed in what I was doing that I didn’t know Jace was back until a cool liquid was poured onto my ass. I moaned as Jace used one of his fingers and slipped it into my ass.
I couldn’t believe I was attempting this. My first time wasn’t exactly pleasant, but nothing about my reunion with Kai had been. I’d grown so much since that moment, and Jace’s finger was magic. I found myself wiggling and moving as I moaned into Kai’s mouth.
“Hold my wrists, Tink.”
“I have leather cuffs,” Jace said. I looked over my shoulder at him. “What? They’re fun.”
“Yes, get me those. Where are your hooks,” Kai asked. Was it wrong that I thought Kai tied up with leather was sexy as hell?
“Head of the bed, you’ll have to move if you want the tie-downs.”
“Sure,” Kai answered. I didn’t know what they meant, but I got the picture as Jace wandered back with leather cuffs and a black rope. I couldn’t help but laugh as Kai pushed his body up, keeping me firmly with him as he repositioned and laid his arms once more above his head.
Jace tossed the cuffs by my hand, and I smiled. “You don’t have to look so happy about this,” Kai said, but there was no anger in his voice.
“Oh, but I do. I really, really do.” Teasing Kai was fun, and I was nearing giddy as I buckled the first cuff and then the second around his wrists.
Jace was bent down beside the bed and stood holding the rope. “I’m making this simple with a quick-release knot, so if you want to, all you have to do is roll off the bed and pull the second line,” Jace said as he slipped the rope through the rings on the cuffs and then squatted down once more. “I won’t bother with the other side.”
“Do you really want it to be that easy for me to get up and untie myself,” Kai asked. “Not scared that I’m going to kill you?”
Jace chuckled as he stood. “Try the tension,” Jace said. Kai tugged and couldn’t move his arms. “I’d be stupid if I thought there was no chance of you trying to kill me. But the fact that you initiated this and want something to keep you from killing me tells me it’s not what you want. You’re worried about your snapping point. Consider this a trust exercise given the circumstances.”
I grabbed Kai’s face as Jace got on the bed behind me and resumed his playing, prepping, or whatever it was he was doing.
“Just kiss me and look at me,” I murmured against Kai’s lips.
“I’ll go slow,” Jace said.
I tried to keep a straight face for Kai, but fuck, the feel of Jace stretching me was intense on its own, let alone with Kai already inside of me.
“Oh shit, oh wow,” I moaned with each inch he pushed deeper. I could feel them filling me up to levels I didn’t think possible, and the pleasure stole the air from my lungs. My mouth opened to scream, but nothing came out. It was too much, and my heart was beating so fast that I thought I would pass out. At least they wouldn’t have to worry about sharing for long.
“Bite my chest,” Kai growled low against my cheek. “Breathe, Tink. The tension will make it worse.”
“I’m trying,” I gasped, tears forming as the pain and pleasure brought back memories. I blinked, trying to force them away as the sounds and smells of that night and those men flooded my senses. As if sensing things were at a breaking point, Jace stopped moving altogether.
“Look at me,” Kai whispered. “You’re not there.” I nodded as a tear escaped and dripped onto his chin.
“I know,” I breathed out but couldn’t look him in the eyes. The embarrassment over what happened and the guilt of what I did to Kai…what I did to us, bounced around inside my brain. It couldn’t have picked a worse time to race to the front of my mind.
“We can stop Peaches. This doesn’t need to happen if it’s too much too soon,” Jace said, his voice smooth. Them both being so nice was freaking me out more. That wasn’t like either of them.
“Do you still want to do this,” Kai asked.
I was tempted to say no, that I couldn’t handle it. But if I stopped now, I’d hate myself later for being weak and letting the past sneak up and grip me. This might be the only time Kai and Jace let this happen. And I walked away? No, I couldn’t stop now.
“Yeah, I do.” I took a deep breath and ordered my body to relax, not that it did much good. So much for the yoga classes. They don’t prepare you for two cocks inside of you.
“Okay, then bite my chest as hard as you want. I fucking love the pain when it comes from you. Give me all you’ve got, Tink. I want your mark on me forever.”
I bushed my lips against his chin, and his eyes softened briefly. These glimpses of Kai under the mask of an MC enforcer gave me hope for us…for all of us. I licked at the area I was going to bite down on and reminded myself he wanted this. My teeth just touched his skin when Jace thrust the rest of the way in, his body hitting mine.
