As we walk back to our hotel, I can feel the sadness settling in even deeper. But I know that I can’t let it ruin my trip. I’m here to explore and have fun. My dad offered me this trip to get over the breakup with Mike. And here I am, jumping from one breakup to the next. This is awful.
I put on a brave face and try to enjoy the rest of my day. But deep down, I know that I need to talk to Jackson about what he’s been hiding. I don’t know if I am ready to do that just yet.
I ask at the reception desk what there is to do on Bimini. And the receptionist gave some good tips. She said I should rent a golf cart to explore the island and the different beaches.
So, that is what I do. It is beautiful and I enjoy myself a lot. I stop at some local restaurants and have seafood while I hop from one beach to the next. This Island is so secluded and absolutely breathtaking. My thoughts catch up with me and I get a little sad. I know it would have been so much more fun to share with Jackson.
The next day, I wake up early and head to the beach to take a dip in the crystal-clear waters. I put on my favorite swimsuit, a pastel purple one-piece that always makes me feel confident and happy. As I splash around in the water, I spot a group of tourists gearing up for a kayaking adventure, and I decide to join them.
I rent a kayak and set off to explore the island’s lagoons. The scenery is breathtaking, and I feel a sense of peace as I paddle through the calm waters. After an hour or so of kayaking, I return to the beach and decide to go snorkeling.
I put on my snorkeling gear and wade into the water, eager to explore the underwater world. As I swim around, I am amazed by the vibrant coral reefs and the colorful fish swimming around me. I even spot a few stingrays and sea turtles!
In the afternoon, I take a boat to SS Sapona, a concrete boat in the water just of shore. It was super strange and interesting.
The next day, I decide to go on a fishing trip with Sarah and some of the locals. We head out to sea, and I was excited to try my hand at catching some of the region’s prized fish. We spent the day fishing, and I even catch a few snapper and barracuda! I recorded so much content, I am not sure I will get through editing all of it.
Despite all the fun I’m having, I can’t shake the feeling of disappointment and betrayal that I feel about Jackson and Olivia’s secret. Surprisingly, I have not seen him once since I walked out of his hotel room, although I did spot Olivia swimming in the hotel pool when I was heading back from fishing. I did my best to avoid eye contact with her.
As for Jackson, I wasn’t sure if he was actively avoiding me or if it was just a coincidence. I had expected him to at least make an effort to apologize and make things right, but he seems to have disappeared completely off the island.
On the last night of the trip, as I pack my bags and prepare to leave the Bahamas the next morning, I can’t help but feel conflicted about my experience on the island. On the one hand, I had a great time exploring and trying new things, but on the other hand, I feel let down by Jackson and Olivia’s actions. I wasn’t sure where we stand and whether or not I can trust them again.
I am not even sure how the flight to the next destination is going to work now or how the next trip is going to go. I am very tempted to call my dad and cancel but I know I have to power through. All the traveling content I have put up has really boosted my follower count and I am hoping with that, the brand ambassadorship and paid content creation jobs will start trickling in, too.
Tomorrow is the last trip that I had planned on my itinerary, and it is a complete change of pace from all the beaches and tropical islands. This time, we are going back north to Big Sky, Montana. It is still winter over there and we will be checking out a fancy ski resort.
Chapter 12
Trust Issues
Jackson
“Isshestillmadat you?” Liv asks me.
I turn back and watch Amber at the back, scrolling her phone mindlessly. I miss her chirpy voice, her commentary, her everything.
“Yep! Still pissed.”
“Same here,” Liv replies before slapping a hand on my back. “And this is all on you. I knew something was going on between you two and now I am smack in the middle of it. I missed out on swimming with sharks she tells me, just because you screwed up.”
I scrunch my face. “I know, Liv. Trust me, I know.”
“Good. Now how do you plan on fixing it?” she whispers.
“I don’t know yet, but I will figure something out in Big Sky.”
“Okay, grumpy!” then she offers me a small sympathetic smile and moves to the back.
I watch as she talks to Amber, curious to hear the words they are exchanging, but Amber shakes her head once and turns back to her phone.
Dejected, Olivia moves to the back and takes the seat behind Amber.
I have to fix this. I have to fix this immediately.
We land in Bozeman on time and the ride to the ski resort is still as tense and quiet as the flight here was.
The ride takes us along a rushing river and trough an canyon. What a beautiful landscape. I even get to see some mountain goats on the side of the road.