Page 23 of Dirty Chaos
“I get that, Dirty, why do you think sometimes I go out of my comfort level with you? It’s not something I enjoy, getting cum in my hair and eyes, up my nose, not a fun time.” She snorts.
I have to chuckle at that, because I’m sure it’s not.
“I’m going to therapy,” I admit to her.
Her eyes light up and she looks at me with a beaming smile. “Dude, that’s awesome. That will be best for you, I’m sure.”
“Hangman also gave me an out, said if I needed time away from the club, I could take it. But Anara, as much as I love you and want to work this out, I can’t abandon my club. They’re my brothers, family.”
She frowns. “Sam, I would never ask you to do that for me. Ever. I know what the club is like for you. I just wish you could keep it in your pants. I keep wondering, am I just not enough for you?”
“You’ll always be enough for me, Anara, I’m just a screw up. I promise to be better.”
“I don’t know if I can trust you.”
“But you’re trusting Chaos?” I demand, getting angry.
She shakes her head. “We’re just casually dating. Taking it slow.”
I snort. “Slow my ass, you fucked him last night.”
“Yes, Dirty, I did. And fuck it was so good, so hot, so explosive,” she taunts me.
That’s it, I’m sick of this. Anara is mine and fuck her and anyone else that thinks differently. I pluck her off the couch and slam my mouth to hers. She fights me for a moment before giving in, sliding her tongue between my lips and battling with my own.
I groan as my cock stiffens in my pants. Fuck, I need her now. Good thing she’s only wearing a skirt because I hoist her up, her legs instantly go around my waist and I slide her panties to the side. Moving a hand between us I unzip my pants and pull my cock free then slam home inside of her warm, wet cunt.
“Mine,” I growl out as I walk her to a wall and pound away at her.
“Sam!” she shouts, moans.
“Fucking love you, Anara, only you.” I grunt, biting down on her neck as I pound so hard, I almost fear for the wall.
I shout out my release inside of her and step away. She sags against the wall and pulls her panties back over her pussy.
“That, that shouldn’t have happened.” She lets out a shaky breath.
“Should have happened when you first kicked me out. I’m not giving up on us, Anara. You’re mine, and you best remember that. You’re marked, you’re owned. I’m never giving you up. And tomorrow, first thing, I’m moving back in. So, you better fucking deal with it.” I hate pulling the bossy card on her but this has gone on long enough.
She looks at me with tears in her eyes. “I can’t choose between you and Hunter.”
I clench my jaw. “Don’t fucking care. When I’m inside you, it’s only me. If you end up wanting him here, too, so be it. Fuck it. We’ll play happy fucking family for all I care. Don’t give a fuck. But you and I, we’re not over. Not by a long shot. I’ll keep my dick to myself, I swear it. Because Anara, these last few weeks without you have been fucking torture.”
She nods and cries. “I can’t do it again, Sam. Please don’t make me.”
“Never again, I promise you. Now as much as I hate to do this, we need to talk about Chaos, and what it means for our relationship. Because I’ll be damned if I let you go to be only his. You’re Untamed property, babe, and that’s never going to change.”
“He wants me branded,” she tells me, not meeting my eyes.
“I figured. You’d be Old Lady to two different clubs. That’s some serious protection I don’t mind you having. But I want to know why you were so quick to just forgive him for all the shit he used to put you through. Hell, the fucker beat you so bad once he put you in the hospital.”
“He’s changed, Sam, he’s so different now. Kind, gentle, just like the man he was when I first fell in love with him.”
“So, you love him?”
“I don’t think I ever really stopped. Having him back here, in my face again, brought back all these old feelings. Am I stupid for getting back together with him? Yes. But I’m also stupid for being with you, too. I just can’t win. I have shit taste in guys.”
I laugh at that. “Babe, you don’t have shit taste. We’re all just going through a rough patch. It will get better; we’ll all be better. I swear on it. Is there going to be jealousy? Yes. That’s normal, but I’ll deal with it.”
