Page 15 of West (The Moral Compass 1)
Reason number four? He’s my new boss. Five? He’s too hot! I don’t think I can keep my thoughts clean. How would it feel if I heard him in the shower? How would it feel to be naked in the bedroom next to his?
I let the flimsy hospital blanket slide down my body a bit. It’s too fucking hot. He’s too fucking hot.
Okay, this is not going to work, Sutton. You cannot do this. Twice this week, I have found my hand wandering into my pyjama bottoms after he’s left for the night. I’m supposed to be recovering from a serious head injury, but I can’t stop the throbbing between my legs when I think of him.
I’ve never seen anyone with such kind eyes. They are the darkest brown. I sometimes wonder if they are coloured contacts. His lips are perfect. I can imagine them smashing down on mine and our tongues dancing away, his tongue delving into places no man has ever been before—
Stop, Sutton. Stop.
Shit, my hand is now down my pyjama bottoms, and my fingers are circling my clit. I close my eyes and picture his gorgeous face, his eyes looking up at me from between my legs.
Oh, God. Too quick. Yep, that’s it. I’m coming. Oh, fuck. Fuck, yes. Oh, God.
I lay there looking like a mess, all sweaty and spent. If he can do this to me without doing anything to me, I’d be fucked living with him, even if it was only for a few short weeks. Nope, that can’t happen. Won’t happen.
“So, Sutton, are you ready to get out of here?” It’s the doctor. The one who wants to evict me from the hospital.
“Erm... I don’t think I’m quite ready yet.”
I’m stalling for time. I don’t have anywhere to go. I’ve looked at places, but they are too expensive. I’ve given notice on my house, but my landlord is insisting I pay up my monthly rent and pay for the damage Jaxon did. I can’t afford a cardboard box. Kara isn’t much help, either. She has her niece staying on her sofa for the next month whilst her sister is away in Canada working.
I’ve priced up hotels, and unless I want bed bug bites to accompany my already multicoloured body, there are not many options. I can’t afford a decent place. I will be able to once I start my new job and get my first pay check, but until then, I’m skint. Absolutely skint. Nada. Not a fucking penny.
He must have known what I was thinking, but the doctor replied, “I’m sorry, Sutton, but you are well enough to leave. We need the bed for people who are sick. There is nothing more we can do for you here. You’re medically fit and ready for discharge.”
Shit.
“When do I have to leave?” I ask, hoping he’s gonna give me a few days.
“We will have your papers and medication ready for around 2:00 p.m. Do you want me to call Mr. McGarry and let him know or will you?”
Double-shit.
“It’s okay, I’ll do it.”
“Make sure you do, Sutton. You have to leave even if no one is here to collect you.” He sounds sceptical that I’ll call. He’d be right. I won’t call West or Kara. I can manage on my own. My chest tightens at the thought of ‘on my own’, but why? I’ve been on my own since I turned sixteen.
Fuck it. I can do this and will do this. Fuck them all.
The nurse comes in to help pack up my stuff. It’s only then I realise there is no way I’m getting out of here without someone with a large car. I have crutches to deal with, too.
Fuck, Fuck, Fuck.
I pick up my phone and call the only person who can and will help me. West.
Chapter 12
West
“Yeah,noproblem,I’llbe there at 2:00 p.m.”
I put the phone down and smile. It’s actually an evil smile because I have realised I am winning this little game between Sutton and me. Then, I start to think.
Shit, it’s only because she has no one else in the world but me and Kara, and I made Kara lie to her so that she would have to come and stay with me. But why? Because you can’t stop thinking of her, you fucking idiot. Your dick is ruling your brain.
June walks in at that moment. I’ve told June most of what is going on and what has happened. She did offer to put Sutton up herself, but I insisted it wouldn’t be any good for her mental health to be with strangers.
What a crock of shit. More fucking lies.
