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31- Feelings
Aariz
I lost my temper on this behaviour of Sani's.
Pulling her in my arms, I could see her face reflect fear looking into my eyes.
But I did not care. I was furious and hurt.
“Do you think it’s funny? Some sort of a joke Sani? And if you are serious right now, I can't tell you how angry I am!” I clutched her so tightly that she flinched in pain, yet I did not soften my tone and went on infuriated,
“You are breaking up with me, when we have just about started dating?!” I shook my head bewildered, “What all we know about each other is enough for now Sani. Slowly with time we will get to know everything about each other, it’s no big deal and you know that. We developed feelings for each other without having every detail of one another. I know this is not the reason for you avoiding me. Now tell me the real reason and don't you dare lie that I don't like you and all that crap. Because, I know you do! Just tell me what the hell has happened all of a sudden?! Tell me the truth. Till you don't say it, I won't let you move from here.” I threatened keeping a strong hold around her arms and waist.
My complete disbelief on her lies and my shouting made Sani helpless. I could see her facade crumbling and the strength she had gathered, melting away with tears. A sob escaped her throat and she finally nodded, “My family will never agree to me being in relationship with my Prof. I know they won't. And I can't go against them. I don't even know how serious you are about this relationship and if you see any long term future for us. Because I don't want this to be a passing fling if that’s what you are habituated with, in your past relationships. This is my first time and I know absolutely nothing about what you want from this! So how can I fight my family, which I honestly don't want to.” She stared at me with pleading teary eyes, “And what about Zee? God knows what will be his reaction after knowing about us. I'm scared to tell him anything and loose him, because he might hate me for screwing with his best friend. He is very important to me Aariz.” She started looking everywhere but at me as she continued after a pause, “That’s why I started feeling insecure, thinking how can we move forward with this relationship when we don't know things about each other. I felt that you would be better off with someone your age and liking. As mature and qualified as you are. And most importantly, I can't continue with this even though I want to, because I know what my parents reaction will be. In fact, if they come to know that I'm in a relationship with my Professor, they will be extremely upset with me. They might take me out of college. They would hate me forever. I’ll lose their trust. Please try and understand.”
I fell for her all over again.
“Oh Sanu...” Pulling her closer, I took her in my embrace and cupped her face tenderly,
“First of all, I want you and only you. I don't want to start a fresh life with anyone else. I just want you and I'm happy with our life. Secondly, I'm very serious about our relationship dear. Had I not been serious, I’d have never told you my feelings when so much is at stake. And don't worry about Zee. We'll handle him...hmm?” She gave me a timid nod.
I continued, “Your fear about your parents reaction, I completely understand sweetheart. But we will have to tell them anyway, before they come to know about it from somewhere else. If you’re scared to face them, then let me do it. Otherwise, we’ll convince them together somehow. I promise. Don't worry love...hmm?” I smiled resting my forehead on hers.
“Because of all these things you got so disturbed that you started avoiding me, without thinking how would I feel. That’s not fair Sani.” I complained with utmost affection.
“Sorry. I'm so so sorry.” She cried, hiding her face in my chest.
Pressing a kiss on her hair, my smile lit with mischievous ideas.
“It’s okay, if you say how you feel for me. Please say it for me. Please.” I said in a voice that she often used for being cute, which always made me want to do anything for her.
I wished to lift her mood and finally hear those words from her.
“I like you...a lot. I like you more than a friend does. More than anyone in this world ever can.” Sani whispered on my neck, her lips caressing my skin in the process and burning me in desire.
But every other feeling took a back seat as she faced me and spoke again, staring at me with eyes dripping in honesty,
“I really do feel deeply about you. Please believe me.”
I had never felt so special, so cared before.
“I do too.” Were the only words that came out of my mouth just as softly.
She felt like the purest thing in the world to me in that moment. Like a prayer.
Nuzzling her, I murmured,
“C'mon, I will drop you home.”
I smiled wholeheartedly, wiping off her tears with my thumb, as I opened the car door for her.
“You really forgave me?” Sani asked in a small voice, looking at me from under her lashes as I started driving.
I caressed her face with the back of my knuckles,
“Of course sweetheart. But you’ll have to bear a punishment.”
I winked at her amused, while her jaw dropped in outrage,
