Page 69 of Imperfect Match (Imperfect Match 1)
A family is the one thing I’ve always wanted, in the depths of my soul. Being a mom, loving another, carrying a baby, and all that comes with that has been my dream. He wouldn’t ask me to give up my dream, would he?
Maybe I should just go to the appointment, hear what they have to say, and decide later what to do. Going doesn’t mean I have to do it, right?
But Reid will hate the idea. He’s always hated it. And I can’t keep this from him—I don’t want us to have secrets. Should I try to talk to him first?
“What’s going on with you?” Aspen asks, giving me the side eye. “Your aura is doing very strange things.”
“I’m thinking.”
“About nuclear disarmament?”
“About Reid.”
She nods her head with a sad smile and then touches my shoulder. “You just went from a lovely shade of gold to very blue, my sweet sister. Don’t worry so much, you’ll find the right answers, you always do.”
I wish I could be so optimistic. “I don’t know, Aspen …”
“Talk to me. Maybe I can help.”
I look at my loopy sister and figure I might as well confide in her. Maybe the universe will communicate the right answers in her voice somehow. “You know how I’ve been thinking about having a baby on my own?”
“Yes.”
“Well, now that I’m with Reid, I’m rethinking it.”
“Because he doesn’t want kids?”
I nod. “He’s been nothing but honest about it.”
“He also hasn’t been in love like this before.”
Maybe that’s true, but I’m not naïve enough to believe that this profound love he’s got with me is going to change anything this fast. It wouldn’t be fair of me to think that either. “I don’t think that he’s suddenly going to want kids just because we’re together.”
“But he knows you want them, right?”
“Yes. He’s been listening to me talk about it for months.”
/> “So it should come as no surprise to him that you would still want to look into things.”
“I guess not.”
“You won’t know unless you ask him.”
I take a deep breath and blurt out what I fear. “What if his answer isn’t the one I’m hoping for? What if my convictions about family are a deal breaker for him?”
Aspen looks sympathetic. “I don’t know, Wills. All I know is that if you don’t talk to him, then you’re going to make up these theories in your mind, ones that are possibly, maybe even probably wrong, and then find yourself all screwed in the head over something you don’t even know is true.”
For once, my sister is actually making some valid points. “I’ll talk to him.”
“Good.” She smiles and heads toward the door before stopping. “Oh! Also, when you want to talk about something important like changing his entire life views on marriage and babies, it helps if you’re completely naked. Men are much less likely to object when there are boobs in their face.”
And then she says something like that and I’m reminded that my sister is a nutjob.
“I’ll take that under advisement.”
She nods once. “Trust me on that one.”
I lean back in my chair, thinking about what she said and praying that tonight, maybe I can approach it and he’ll still be as supportive as he was before I fell in love with him.
