Page 48 of This for That (The Edge of Retaliation 1)
Maybe Ethan was right. Maybe there is a life out here for me—I just have to create it myself.
“You can move,” I say softly, cupping his cheek.
He moves. Slowly. In and out, dragging his cock out of my body, then gently sliding it back in. The first few times I feel raw with pain, but slowly, that pain turns into a dull ache and then incredible pleasure takes its place. At first, it burns, slowly creeping up deep inside my body, and then I clench around him as it becomes an ache that needs desperately to be released.
“God damn, you gotta stop tightening on me, darlin’. Your pussy is so fuckin’ tight. You’re killin’ me.”
His husky voice.
His words.
The way he’s fucking me, a little harder now—it all brings my pleasure forth and I can’t hold it back anymore.
I clench around him, then I explode, crying out as the most incredible feeling washes over my body. It’s warmth and pleasure and a heat that goes so deep, I didn’t even know it was possible.
Tanner growls, and then I feel his release join mine. His cock pulses as he comes deep inside me, over and over, both our bodies trembling.
My lips find his and he kisses me through the pleasure, our moans joining as one. It’s the most incredible experience of my life. I’d relive it over and over again if it were at all possible.
When we both come down from our high, I look at him and his eyes are relaxed, happy.
It’s in that moment I realize we didn’t use protection.
I didn’t even check if he was clean.
It’s in that moment that reality, the little bitch that it is, comes crashing back in to give me a wakeup call.
Always the way.
“WE DIDN’T USE PROTECTION,” I whisper to Tanner once we’re out of the shower and dressed.
He looks to me. “Aren’t you on the pill?”
I am, actually. Jo told me the first day I got out that it was the first thing I needed to do. I went right away and got the IUD inserted. Apparently, it’s the best out there now, and I don’t have to remember to take a pill daily, so that’s something.
“I am protected there. I just mean . . .”
“I’m clean, Callie. I promise you that. I always use protection.”
“You didn’t then . . .”
“That’s because I was your first, unless you and your pussy are liars, which I doubt, because I’ve never felt somethin’ so tight around my cock in my life.”
My cheeks get pink, which surprises me. After six years being in lock-up not much seems to bother me enough for me to blush, but it turns out this does. That’s something I haven’t experienced for a long time.
“Oh,” I say softly, looking up at him.
“Yeah,” he murmurs, running his thumb over my bottom lip. “Oh.”
“Thank you,” I say as we walk back into my room. “For tonight.”
“I didn’t do anything . . .”
I shrug, “You know what I mean. You really helped me out there, on the front sidewalk.”
“Wasn’t goin’ to leave you in the rain, darlin’.”
I smile at him and sit on the end of my bed. He sits down, too, and looks at me, those brown eyes searching my face. “What happened tonight?”
I look down at my hands. The biggest part of me just wants to tell him everything and be done with it, but the selfish part of me wants to feel this forever. If he knows, he may very well walk out that door and never return, and I’m not sure I’m ready for that yet. I want to know more about him. I want him to give me a chance before he knows the demons I keep locked away inside.
So, I don’t tell him, even though it would be the right thing to do.
“I went to my father’s house for dinner. We don’t really get along . . . He hasn’t been there for me, but I thought I’d give him a chance anyway. His new wife and her daughters were there, and they were going on about how they all didn’t want me there, and even he agreed. It was horrible. I have never felt so stupid in all my life. So, I left, and I don’t know . . . it just hurt, I guess.”
“Sorry to hear your old man is a dick,” Tanner says.
I laugh softly. “That’s one way of putting it.”
“About the girl I was with,” he begins, and I turn to him.
“Tanner, you don’t owe me anything. We’re not together.”
“No, we’re not, but I just took somethin’ pretty special from you, and I want to get to know you more, so I owe it to you to tell you that it was nothin’. I used to see her, and she showed up and started takin’ her clothes off in hopes of getting my attention. I had no intention of fuckin’ her, not even once.”
