Page 34 of To Honor

“Some would say my conduct already, being here with you, would not make me very chivalric.”

“No man, or woman, is perfect.”

“And I am certainly not so.”

“You are, to me.”

Gareth pushed away slightly from her as if being so close were difficult for him. “I am far from perfect, Evie.”

“Tell me one of your flaws, then.”

She would keep him here all eve if she could, his arms around her, despite the risk.

“I attempt to prove my worth rather than accepting that I am worthy.”

Evelina didn’t expect such a raw or truthful answer.

“You’ve lost much,” she said, by way of explanation.

“But I will not lose you,” he said. “I came here for a reason, Evie.”

“Was it not to kiss me? To hold me, as you’re doing now?”

“A boon, aye. But not entirely. I came to tell you I am leaving on a mission tomorrow.”

He was sworn to secrecy about the details, and Gareth would not break that oath, even with Evie. But he had to see her one last time, to tell her of his leave-taking.

“You cannot tell me where or what you will be doing?” she guessed.

“I cannot.”

She sighed.

“But I can tell you that, if this mission is successful, one I’ve asked to lead, it will turn the tide on Empress Matilda’s campaign. If you agree, I will ask for your father for your hand in marriage upon my return.”

“He will not give it.”

“He may after this mission. With your blessing, and our success, there is a possibility, Evie. And that is more than there was a day ago.”

“If my father does not agree?”

“I cannot wait until my family’s lands and titles are restored, not with his bid to betroth you to the empress’s son. This is my only plan.”

He was not being truthful. “Gareth? Please do not ever lie to me. One thing I love most about you is your honesty.”

“Love?”

She’d not meant to say that. They had not known each other for long, so it seemed premature. Yet, they were talking about spending the rest of their days together.

“Aye. Love.”

“Mmm,” he said, the back of his hand grazing her cheek lovingly. “I am glad to hear it. ’Tis for your love I aim to prove myself, once again. And to return to make you my wife. I’ve loved you from the moment we met.”

“’Tis not possible. You did not know me then.”

“I knew enough. And my instincts were right. You are as intelligent, and beautiful, and giving as I believed. We are meant to be together, Evie. I’m certain of it.”

As was she. “Then be honest with me, please.”