Page 33 of Hawk

I watch as she brings herself to her full height. Pulling on her wrinkled dress shirt, she turns on her heels and walking out of my room...

For days I tried to call my house with no answer. It wasn’t until the night before my release that I was visited by my father. Instead of love flickering in his eyes, there was only disgust. He didn’t even approach me, didn’t try to show me any compassion. His daughter. He stood in the doorway of my room, placing two large duffle bags near the door and tossed a white envelope on my lap. He told me to go. Not to ever come back. That I was no longer his daughter. The ties had been severed.

I was alone.

The sound of a knock on the front door has me stumbling over the rug. I stop at the door and take a deep breath. This is it, there’s no turning back now.

As soon as I pull the door open, I see Hawk standing there. He’s dressed in worn jeans with holes the knees, his infamous black chucks, a black T-shirt is covered by his leather cut. My heart spikes at the sight of it. A symbol of who he is. Of what I ran from.

His dark hair is cut short, styled with a blunt side part and gelled to perfection, something that has been covered with his hat the past couple times I’ve seen him. His eyes are what catch my attention the most. They always have. Picture an evening sky, right before dusk when the sun is kissing the horizon. How the sun makes the sky turn shades of pink and orange but the further away you get from the sun, the brighter blue it becomes. A soft, bright blue—crisp and calming before the darkness takes over. That is what Hawk’s eyes remind me of.

“Hey.” I stand back to allow him to enter my apartment.

His lips tug up slightly giving me his boyish smile. “Is Sam asleep?” He steps into my house.

“Yeah, he has been. I didn’t think you were going to make it.” I closed the door, securing it with the lock.

He turns towards me. “I wanted to make sure I gave you enough time.”

“For what?”

“To ready yourself before you give me the answers to the questions I’m about to ask.”

I close my eyes, and that’s when I feel his presence next to me. My body is so aware of his when he’s this close, and I think he knows it. When he takes another step to me, I can feel the coolness of his leather brush against the thin fabric of my shirt.

“How do you want to do this, Tessa?” His voice trickles to my ear. I can feel his breath on my skin, and it makes my pulse spike.

I take a step back, trying to gain my composure. I need to think clearly here, and he makes it so damn hard. The past feelings I had for this man hit the surface with such a force I know that I can so easily give into them and my fears all at the same time.

“Not gonna happen, Tessa.” His hand grabs my waist, not allowing me to go anywhere. “Not until you tell me how.”

“I–I’m not sure,” I say as I open my eyes and find him looking down at me. His stare is hard, and if I didn’t know him, I would be afraid, but I’ve never been fearful of Hawk. He has a way about him. Always has. He can make the evil seem right. The darkest of night seem as bright as the brightest of days. He’s never allowed the club life to hardened him. Well, at least not seven years ago, but I’m sure a lot has happened in that time.

“I need to know, Tessa. What happened? I need to know from you. Not the rumors, not the cops, but from you. Why did you leave?”

He takes my hand and pulls me into the house. Leading me to my couch, he has me take a seat. “Do you want something to drink?” he asks.

“Aren’t I the one who’s supposed to be asking that question?” I get up, but the hand on my shoulder has me staying in place.

“I’ll get it.”

“All right, there are drinks in the fridge. Help yourself.” He comes back with two sodas and a smirk on his face. “What?” I ask as he hands me my drink before taking a seat next to me.

“It’s funny that you still like that Ruby Red Squirt.”

“Yeah, well, if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.” I crack the can open and take a sip. The carbonation tickles my nose as I swallow it down. “As much as I love this stuff, I was hoping you’d bring me something a little stronger.”

He laughs as he shakes his head. I place my soda on the table in front of us and turn to face him.

“What do you want to know?”

“What happened the day at the mall?”

I wipe my hands down my pants. Martha is the only one I’ve told this story to, and that was years ago, but the time lapse doesn’t make it any easier. “What did you hear? I thought the club would know everything by now, Hawk. It’s been years.”

“Like I said, I want facts.”

I slide my body back into the couch and look straight ahead. There’s no way I can say this while facing him. I take a deep breath, clearing my mind from the present and allow myself to go back to that fateful day. The day when I lost everything. My family. My best friend.