Page 45 of Sin

"I've thought that. That's one of the reasons why we need a meeting before we commit to anything. I haven't spoken to Louie in years. I need to see where his head’s at. I need to see if he's coming to me as a father who's lost his little girl or as a club president looking to take a club down while doing a job on the side."

"How will you know the difference?"

"I'm going to have Mom sit in on the meeting."

"Why?"

"Because she has had a child taken. She can sympathize and she can tell me if he's sincere or not."

"That's risky, bringing Mom into it."

"Well then, you'll think it's even riskier when I tell you that I’m going to have Savannah in the room as well."

"Fuck no you aren't!"

"Listen to me, Sin. I would never put your girl in harm’s way. I would trust you with Lily's life; you need to grant me the same decency. I’m not telling you that I'm going to be parading her in front of Redding and the cartels he's in cahoots with. I'm telling you, and let me repeat, I'm telling and not asking you, that she is going to be in the room with mom, you, me, and half of the club. No one will get to her. I need to see if seeing her gives Louie any reaction. We don't have to introduce her. I just need her present."

"I'm not sure if Savannah will be up to it."

"She'll be up to it after you tell her what you found out today."

"That's club business, you know how I feel about getting involved with the shit end of club business, but I’ll tell her. Only because this has to do with her and her safety and I’ll do whatever I need to do to make sure they both stay safe. But me telling her doesn’t mean she’s going to want to put herself and the baby in danger. I’m leaving that decision up to her. I’m not pushing."

He nods. "I know you’re club by name only, and that’s fine with me. I’ve been trying Sin. I’m trying to make your life a little better and that’s the only reason why I’m so lax when it comes to your involvement with the club. Any other brother’s lack of participation wouldn’t go unnoticed, but I understand when it comes to you. I know where your heart is, and it's not with Devil's Fury and that's okay. I'm thankful it's beating again; it's been a long time."

"Don't get it twisted."

"Brother,” he shakes his head, smiling “I don't have anything twisted. I see everything perfectly. It's you who needs to open his eyes. Get the fuck outta here, and see your girl and make sure that baby is healthy."

"I know the baby isn't Sin's." Kara, who’s sitting next to me in the waiting room, says under her breath. I knew as soon as Hawk mentioned that he was going to wait outside the door that she’d make her move. He mentioned something about keeping a look out, but what he failed to realize is that Kara never had an appointment. It's a lie. I love Hawk to death, but most of the time he’s clueless. Sin is gonna kick his butt when he finds out she’s still here.

"And how do you know that?" My eyes drift around the room, taking in all the expecting mothers.

"It's easy, really. He hasn't really left the compound in months. The first time was when he brought you back. I've never seen you before and I try to be there as much as I can. Being seen is important, you know?" I didn't, but I wasn't going to tell her that. I have no desire to get into that conversation with her. "So I know, that baby isn't his."

"Good for you, Sherlock." I mumble.

"Why aren't you with your baby daddy?"

"It's really none of your business, Kara. Anything to do with me is none of your business. Let's keep it like that, shall we?"

"I'm not trying to be nasty, Savannah. I was just asking. Don't you get lonely sitting in that room all day long?”

“I’m not in the room all day. I have plenty to keep me busy.” I goad her a little more. “I help Sin in the shop. He seems to like my company.”

Her eyes flare with contempt, but she quickly schools her features. “Don't you miss having a girlfriend to talk to?"

"It's been a long time since I've had a girlfriend to confide in. It's hard to miss something you don't remember having."

"That sounds awful. Girlfriends are the best. You know, there’s a clubhouse full of ladies who are great people and would love to take you under their wing. Me included." The snarkiness of her voices tells me otherwise.

"Listen, Kara. We’re nothing alike. I’m not putting down your lifestyle decisions. To each their own, but we’re nothing alike. I see how you and the rest of them look at me. Do not make offers that aren’t sincere. I don’t have time for the games. I'm going to be a mother. I'm going to be responsible for someone other than myself. My worries are going to be how not to mess up my child's life, not whose dick I'm going to suck that night." She looks taken aback by my outburst. I see a couple women shift in their seats, probably uncomfortable with our confrontation.

"Wow, I have no idea what he sees in you. You’re such a grade A bitch. You walk around Bianca’s house and the shop like your shit doesn’t stink. I’ve got some news for you." She stands up and faces me, her hands on the arms of my chair as she leans into me. I know she’s doing this trying to intimidate me, but I don’t budge, I might even sit up a little straighter. “You’re just a distraction, something bright in a place that’s full of darkness. Sin will get tired of you. The attraction will wear off and he’ll be back to where he belongs. Between my legs.”

“Savannah Ray.” The nurse calls my name making my head jerk her way. Kara stands at attention, and takes a step back.

“I’m coming.” I give her a small smile.