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Her sigh of relief was not small. “Thank fuck.” My mate was altogether holy and irreverent. And mine.

The hum of the club below drifted back into range—laughter, bass-line, the faint sweet sting of regulated venom. The glass wall remained dark at my command. The office held the light it had borrowed from us as an afterimage, patient and a little tender. I watched her for another long minute, memorizing the way color came and went in her cheeks, the shape her mouth made when her thoughts turned inward, the exact weight of her against my side. I had measured the world by debts and treaties for so long that I had forgotten the other arithmetic.

I spoke once more without speaking, because the urge to waste no time had taken me late and entirely.

“You will not die, I told her. Not while breath still bothers to visit my chest. Not while I own the right to say no to the dark.”

Her lashes lowered. The receiving of it looked like gratitude and a promise. “And you,” she said aloud, voice soft with mischief and steel, “will drink when I tell you. Because apparently I am dangerous to you in ways we still have to name.”

“Yes,” I said, and leaned in to kiss the corner of her mouth. “Command me.”

She laughed—a low, delighted thing that made the hairs on my arm rise for reasons that had nothing to do with threat. I poured her more water. The night outside remembered its tasks. Inside my office, I considered, briefly but completely, what it would mean to be a better man than I had been yesterday.

The answer sat beside me, warm and alive and bright enough to throw light on my old scars, and I decided I could endure it. I decided I would.

Chapter 18

Devon

Early evening made a cathedral out of the office. The new desk that Kazimir had gotten for me fit perfectly in the space and I loved working beside him. The light fell long through the tall windows and turned the dust into slow stars, and the leather sofa—scandalous an hour ago—behaved like a respectable parish pew under the weight of paper and ink. Below, the building learned its breath, the faint percussion of staff moving in patterns I was just beginning to read. The scent in here belonged to old books and ironed linen and something ink-bitter I secretly liked. I tucked my hair behind my ear, ran through a few invoices, and let the quiet do what it did best here—hold me steady while the world sharpened.

I moved on to the patrol maps. The perimeter was an elegant mess—elegant because the redundancies were invisible unless you knew how redundancy dressed; mess because life did what it wanted to the best-laid plans. Wards ran like fishing line between physical defense points; the cameras had been staggered so no single angle had jurisdiction over the same patch of ground twice in under a minute. The patrol routes—blue marker—overlapped with a mathematician’s restraint.

I circled the section lightly, then drew a diagonal slash through my circle, the code I’d used on tickets at the diner when something didn’t add up. If I listened—really listened—the hum under my palm sharpened to a warning bell at that point. It wasn’t danger yet. It was a possibility. Those made better murderers.

I kept going. The south side had its own rhythm—wider streets, a line of sight that kept most men honest. The east perimeter leaned into its cousin buildings and borrowed their shadows; that would be a problem on a fogged night, not so much on a full moon. The west—our entrance for those who knew where to knock—was cleaner. I tracked the nightly foot patterns with the side of my hand and found a seam where two shifts met—a three-minute edge the maps didn’t show.

I made another neat mark and wrote a number beside it. Then I laid the pen down and sat back a fraction.

“Kazimir,” I said.

He stood, soft as a shadow falling, and came to look at the map on my desk. His hand—cool, elegant—settled itself on the back of my chair near my shoulder, and the long planes of him entered my periphery. I pointed.

“Here,” I said, tapping the north alley. “We treat this like a straight line, but it isn’t. The camera’s angle leaves a slice if a truck higher than six foot nine hugs the curb. It’s nothing most nights because the ward covers it, but the ward flexes to accommodate this old drain… If someone times the weekly produce delivery and knows exactly where to hang a hand, he can ride the weakness. Twelve seconds. Maybe ten if he’s lucky. Long enough to get a tracker on a crate or a man if he knows how to make himself part of a stack.”

He bent closer, and his breath stirred the hair just behind my ear. I heard the soft scratch of his ring against the paper as he braced on the table’s edge to shade the print with his body.

I waited. He didn’t rush into the part where he made it better. He considered my observation. “Good catch. Make the notes, scan them and send them to everyone.”

I swallowed something that tried to expand in my chest until it would break ribs. The last time someone had said I was good at anything, they’d been handing me a bus tray that weighed more than my wrists liked and telling me I was good at mopping the floor. This was different. This was my body remembering the rules it had learned before I was cast down and realizing praise always felt good.

“You have a warrior's eye for strategy,” he said.

“Thank you,” I said, met his eyes, and didn’t look away. The pale blue went darker at the edges. “I don’t…know why I know it. But I do.”

“I do,” he said, with that soft gravity that made me want to believe the world had bones you could trust. “You are a soldier of the first order. It has not left you.”

I finished the decoy notes and wrote a small addendum in Amelia’s language about the ward tweak—then made a note about installing additional protection. I drew it with a flourish at the top because if you had to put a physical reminder in the world that it wasn’t safe to cheat, you could at least make it handsome.

“Done,” I said finally, and the word settled something inside of me. I pressed my palm to the page one more time, feeling for hums where I’d made marks. The old soldier in me—whoever she had been—approved.

Across the room, Kazimir glanced up and gave me the smallest nod, like I’d handed him his coffee exactly the way he liked it. I loved his subtle approval.

I headed out of the office for a much-needed break. The need to personally scan the halls and see the guards face-to-face had become a necessary part of my day.

Lucia came around the corner sharp as a blade, yet soft as silk, a tray balanced on one palm. She had traded the designer dresses for something deceptively simple: black trousers, a red blouse that said she meant business, her hair in a braid that looked like it could double as a weapon. Her eyes met my face and warmed in an instant.

“I brought bribes,” she said. “Tea for a woman who just reorganized my father’s to-do list with frightening efficiency.” She set the tray on a slim console table against the wall and handed me a cup of tea. “Don’t get used to me playing errand girl. I’m spoiling you early so I can be impossible later.”