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Right. ‘Cause now I’m fully naked in front of him. Now’s when he’ll come and take what he wants from me. Demand my holes. Use me like a toy. Or maybe beat me while I’m vulnerable.

And yet, somehow I can’t get up the energy to care.

“I uh…I can go,” Micah says.

I blink. He’s offering to leave? What the fuck?

I turn to see him still facing away, and then a bolt of anger hits me. Nothing he does makes any sense. Why the fuck can’t I make sense of him?

“Do you want to go?” I ask. I need a real answer from him. Something, anything real.

Micah doesn’t turn around, but his answer is immediate. “No.”

That seemed real.

And yet, he stands there. Like all the power is in my hands. Like he’s waiting for me to tell him what to do. Like I’m in control.

For a second, my heart skips a beat in my chest. What if I am? What if he really is nice?

My brain screams no, that this is a trap, but my body is weak. Suddenly, all I want is to see if Micah will let me be in control again. If he’ll come in here and give up all choices to me.

Mistake! Danger! Run!

My mind screams, but my body doesn’t listen. My dick is hard, still throbbing from earlier. And then, my body follows my stupid, stupid body, ignoring my head, and I step back in the shower, making room for Micah to join me.

CHAPTER FORTY-ONE

Not only do I not want to go, but I also want to jump in that shower with Maddox and get as close to him as I can until he feels better. I want to suds him up and wash down every inch of his body until he feels safe in it again. I want to promise him it’ll be okay because we have each other.

Is that too much?

Slowly, I turn around. Maddox is standing under the spray, staring at me. His whole body is angled toward me, and I can’t help but notice his glorious nakedness. This is my first time seeing his dick and KUMQUAT. It’s not even hard, and it’s big and thick. A shock of arousal moves through my system.

He does have a tattoo. He has a fancy A right on his waist. His slutty waist right by his Adonis belt. And cheese and crackers if I don’t feel a hit of both arousal and jealousy. I know what the A stands for, and yet, Maddox looks hot with ink. I stand there, conflicted for a second.

Maddox just waits there like he doesn’t even notice the water falling on him. Like all he sees is me.

I take a step toward him, pulled by the connection in my chest.

The room is filling with steam. Maddox steps back in the shower, motioning for me to join him.

Cornnuts! He wants me in there with him. Like he really wants that. Is this real life?

I don’t wait to find out. I strip so fast, my heart racing, and when I look at Maddox again, his dick is hardening. It sends a shock of arousal through me, and it feels like my skin is humming.

I hesitate before I step into the shower. Is he sure? Am I pushing things? Is this just a friendly shower?

Then, Maddox’s soft but demanding voice says, “In, Micah.”

I’m in that shower so fast. The hot water hits me, doing nothing for the heat already coursing through my body. Suddenly, I’m so close to him. Super close, and he doesn’t back away. Desperately, I wish my boner would go away. What if I touch him with it and he doesn’t want it?

”Micah,” Maddox’s voice is tight.

I glance up into the spray, blinking. He’s watching me with a hungry look on his face. I can’t help it; those green eyes look so stunning when they’re filled with something other than fear. And this time it’s a look I can help with.

I glance down. His dick is hard and freaking long, bobbing when I look at it. My mouth waters, and suddenly, all I want is to know what he tastes like.

Glancing back up at Maddox, he swallows. It’s like he wants me to, but he’s holding himself back.