Page 19 of Risking it All

He reached behind himself, hitting number seven on the panel before turning back to me. He kissed the top of my head as his hand slid down to cup my ass. I got comfortable as he repositioned us, putting his back to the wall and pulling me in front of him as the elevator began to climb. My heart pounded as I rested my head against his solid chest.

Hopefully my intoxication would hold out long enough for me to make one of the biggest decisions I had ever made, defying my father once again. I didn’t even want to think about him right now. Emboldened by multiple cocktails and sheer determination, I led the way out of the elevator. Sawyer held onto my hand and trailed me as I strolled down the hall to my room.

When I made it to my door, I pulled the key card out of my bra and scanned us in. The door had barely closed behind us before Sawyer whirled me around and slammed me into it. His hungry mouth was on mine again. Until I tasted his tongue, I didn’t know how intoxicating a kiss could be.

My head spun from how fast things were moving, but I refused to ask him to slow down. I wanted this, needed it. I needed to go through with this for my own sanity and freedom. Part of me wished that I wouldn’t have had so many drinks. I wanted to feel every single thing that was happening.

His hands moved to my dress, tugging and lifting it over my head until I stood in front of him in my bra and panties. Thankfully, I thought to wear a matching set. He took a deep breath as he took me in from head to toe. Whatever insecurity I might have felt evaporated as he studied me appreciatively.

“Shit,” he hissed, biting down on his bottom lip as he stepped out of his shoes. “You’re fine as fuck, mama. I don’t think I can stop saying that shit.”

He quickly stripped out of his clothes, and I couldn’t tear my eyes away from the show. When he was out of his all-black attire, I stared at him in awe. His deep dark chocolate frame was solid with just a hint of softness across the midsection. I didn’t know I had a type until that very moment. Staring at him made me swallow the pool of liquid forming in my mouth.

When he pushed his black briefs down, the thick hard bulge being held captive in them jumped to life. Damn, maybe I wasn’t ready for this after all. I tried to hide my reaction to how big he was, but apparently, he didn’t see the hesitation in my eyes anyway.

Stepping closer to close the space between us, he swept me off my feet like I was weightless and wrapped my legs around him. My heels clattered to the floor as he carried me to the bed and laid me on my back. His body covered mine as his lips grazed my neck. He pulled the straps of my bra down, making my back arch off the bed as his warm mouth covered one of my nipples. His fingers teased the other, tweaking my nipple and making me press my body further into him.

By the time his thumb pressed against my clit, I was soaking wet and aching to the core. This was really happening. I was about to have sex for the first time with a man I hardly knew. In the moment, I had zero regrets.

I moaned as his mouth alternated between my nipples, licking and sucking until they were so sensitive I could cry. Every pull and tug from his lips sent currents all over my body. He kissed my lips before burying his face in the crook of my neck and sucking hard.

I didn’t know when my panties came off, but by the time I realized that I was naked, I felt the blunt force of the head of his dick pressed against my wet opening. As wet as I was, that shit still hurt like hell.

“I need you to relax for me, mama,” he mumbled against my neck.

I took a deep breath preparing myself for the worst. “OK.”

I felt the moment his body went still. Pushing up on one hand, he looked down at me. His eyes searched mine carefully. “You OK? We can stop if you want to. It’s never too late.”

“No, don’t stop!” I blurted. “I’m fine. I’m just . . . I’ve never done anything like this. Please don’t stop.”

I didn’t want to give him too much time to think about what I said, so I reached for him, pulling him down into another kiss. He started to push inside again. My fingers dug into his shoulders as the intense burn of him stretching into me almost made me tap out. Each careful thrust put him further and further in my tunnel until there was no turning back. I groaned as the overwhelming sensation increased until he was completely inside of me. Tears stung my eyes as he carefully stroked into me at a steady pace.

“Damn, mama.” Sawyer groaned, shaking his head as he found his rhythm.

Gradually, the pain subsided as his careful movements turned into deep strokes that felt so good I thought I was going to burst into tears. I didn’t want to scare him, so I fought back the urge. Still, each thrust of his hips sent electricity coursing through my body from head to toe. Everything felt so good that I didn’t know what to focus on. The weight of his body on me, the softness of his lips as he peppered kisses all over my neck and chest, the way his hips rolled, or how full I felt each time he plunged into me. Was this what I had been missing all this time? No wonder everybody wanted to keep it away from me. I was addicted after the first hit. My hands caressed Sawyer’s back as heat continued to build in my core.

“Oh my God!” I shouted, letting my eyes drift closed as the pleasure consumed me.

“You sure you good, mama?”

“Yes,” I whispered, unsure if I was lying or telling the truth at this point. Something was happening, and I didn’t even know how to describe it yet. All I knew was that I wanted more.

He chuckled under his breath. “I’m not. This pussy is so fucking wet and tight. I’m about to lose my shit already.”

“No.” My eyes popped open, and my hands shot to his ass, holding onto him when I thought he was about to pull out.

“I’m not going nowhere, baby,” he vowed as he continued to deliver deliberate strokes, hitting that spot that made me close my eyes in the first place.

He positioned one hand next to my head while slipping the other between us. My head and shoulders pressed into the bed as his thumb carefully circled my clit. Instinctually, my hips rose to meet his, chasing the dull ache that slowly built into a wave of heat.

“Sawyer, oh my goodness,” I whined, throwing my arms around his shoulders and holding on for dear life as he fucked me deeper and faster.

I felt like I would either explode or float away, so I clung to him tighter as my entire body contracted around him. A rolling wave of bliss detonated inside me. My thighs wrapped around him as the blissful sensation marched through me in waves. Sawyer groaned, burying his face in my neck as he continued to thrust into me until his dick pulsed inside me, making us both shiver.

We stayed tangled together for a long while as the weight of his body comforted me. He didn’t know how much I needed to feel that. I needed something to counter the weight of my decision lying heavily on my chest. He kissed my forehead, nudging my face until my eyes were on him. I smiled reassuringly as he placed a soft kiss on my lips. I winced as he finally pulled out and rolled me onto my stomach.

“I can’t get enough of you, mama,” he said, sweeping my hair off my shoulders as he kissed his way up my back. I gasped, and my hand gripped the sheets as he entered me again from behind.