Page 30 of Butch

“I… Nothing happened,” she whispered.

Daddy cupped her face, forcing them to look at each other. “Something happened. You and I both know it. Can you tell Daddy what happened?”

She shrugged and tried to look away, but he kept a firm grip on her face.

“Tell Daddy,” he encouraged her. “I’m not going to get mad at you. I’m not going to do anything but listen and comfort you.”

“Later?” she asked.

His eyes narrowed. “Are you just trying to get out of it and hope that I forget?”

Guilt overtook her, and she nodded. “Yes.”

“Baby, Little Fairy. Everything is going to be okay,” he gently said.

“I just don’t want you to do something stupid and try to find him. He’s dangerous. He knows dangerous people, and we just found each other. I don’t know if I can survive knowing you either died or are in jail.”

“I promise I won’t do anything this time,” he replied.

“When I did something wrong, he used to make my punishments a surprise. Sometimes it would be in the middle of the night when I was asleep. Sometimes it would be in the middle of eating or when I was in a vulnerable mental state. He liked to toy with me and see how much of a reaction he could get out of me,” Rae explained, the words spilling out faster than she could talk. “And eventually I was always on edge, trying to keep my guard up so I didn’t get hurt.”

“Was this before or after he hurt you and made you hearing impaired?” Daddy asked.

“It was before. It only got worse when I couldn’t hear him.” Her voice cracked. “I don’t want to talk about this any longer. I just want to forget and not think or make any decisions.”

Daddy kissed her forehead. “Okay, Little Fairy. Thank you for telling me. Daddy is so proud of you.”

Raelynn just wanted to forget about everything. She wanted Daddy to take care of her and help to push everything away, so she didn’t have to even think about it once.

“Can I now be Little?” she whispered.

Daddy nodded. “Anything for my Little Fairy.”

She snuggled into his chest and let out a sigh of contentment.

“Such a good girl,” he praised her. “Why don’t we go sit on the rocking chair in your room while I feed you?”

Daddy stood up with her in his arms as he walked into the kitchen and got everything he needed.

“Hmm, does my Little Fairy want to be swaddled?” he asked.

Rae didn’t want to make any decisions today, and she knew Daddy wasn’t really asking her, but the thought of him asking a question had her gripping onto his shirt a little tighter.

“It’s okay, Little Fairy. Daddy is going to swaddle you. If you need to get out, then we’ll come up with something to do so you don’t have to speak,” he explained as he walked into a room.

Her eyes briefly scanned the smaller room to see a crib in the back corner and a rocking chair in the left corner. But there wasn’t much else in the room.

“This room is supposed to be yours. I got these things because I figured you would like them, but I didn’t want to get anything else, and you wouldn’t like it. I honestly wanted to go out with you to figure out what you wanted to put in your room. I wanted you to have the freedom and not feel like you had to say yes to something because I had already bought it,” Daddy said as he sat in the chair, placing her sideways on his lap.

Rae’s head was in the crook of his arm as she looked up at him.

“Daddy isn’t going to swaddle you right now. I don’t want you to be drinking and not be able to tell me if you need to stop,” Daddy explained. “But after we can swaddle you. I think I even got an adult-size wrap, so if you wanted to be on my front or back while I do things around the house, then you can be. Daddy doesn’t know if he wants you to be away from me for a long period of time.”

Her arms relaxed against her body as she snuggled into his body. He was saying all the right things. It was like he was reading her mind. Rae didn’t want to be far away from him… not when everything was still overwhelming, and she just wanted to crawl into a hole and not see anyone.

“I think when you’re particularly feeling small, we can do that. That way, neither one of us has to be away from each other. I like that idea, and I think we’re going to have to do it quite a bit. Or maybe when you’re feeling that Little, I’ll just make sure to have everything in one room, so we don’t have to leave,” Daddy said as he pushed the nipple into her mouth.

Raelynn started to suckle as she looked up at Daddy. Things were going a lot better than she had thought they were. It had been many years since they had done this together, yet it felt like yesterday when they were in high school.