Another video loads.
A fountain surrounded by flowers.
Then a library that looks like a cathedral.
Then football players walking past students carrying violins, robots, and surfboards.
Malibu Barbie and Harvard?
It sounds ridiculous.
It also looks warm.
I glance toward the window.
The weather app says negative eight, but the windchill makes it feel like negative twenty-six. Tomorrow morning, I’ll step outside and the cold will seize my lungs before I make it to the bus stop.
My father thinks I’m going to a state school.
That I’ll get an MBA.
Then I’ll help him open a gym where another generation of boys can become his entire life.
I return to the Stanford video.
“Palm trees sound pretty good,” I whisper.
My college application dashboard is still open in another tab.
I add Stanford before I can think too hard.
Then UCLA.
Pepperdine appears in the suggested results, all ocean views and white buildings above the Pacific, so I add that too.
Three application fees appear.
I almost close the page.
Instead, I search for waivers.
That leads me to financial-aid forms, supplemental questions, scholarship databases, community foundations, private grants, and several websites designed by people who hate teenagers.
I create a spreadsheet.
Deadline.
Amount.
Essay requirement.
Recommendation letters.
Income restrictions.
By one thirty in the morning, I have seventeen possibilities saved.
By two, I have a new folder labeled CALIFORNIA ESCAPE PLAN.