Page 21 of Furthest From Perfect

“Koi,” Skye said sleepily, rubbing her eyes. She released a big, little yawn, making me feel warm inside. I opened my arms for her, and she climbed into my lap to rest her head on my chest. Wrapping her in an embrace, I began to play with her ear until she was fast asleep.

For the entire drive, I kept my eyes on the city blurring by. A time or two, I felt Han’some’s eyes on me, but for some reason, he was allowing us to stew in this weighted silence. I knew he wouldn’t be happy about me sneaking out when they went to the grocery store. I just needed some fresh air and a minute to forget reality. He couldn’t even give me that, though.

It was comical how Han’some was always so quick to snatch me out of the club ever since we got married, mainly because before we said I do, he couldn’t keep his ass out of the club. He’d flipped a switch on his personality, and it was equally scary and intriguing.

When we got home, he took Skye from my arms before getting out. I slid out the same door with them, slid my purse on my shoulder, and strutted into the house. While he went to lay Skye down in her bed, I went to our bedroom and straight into the closet to undress. I tossed my clothes in the basket, then wrapped my body in my Versace robe.

I nearly jumped out of my skin when I spun around to find Han’some leaning against the doorway. “What?” I snapped on him because his silence was starting to unsettle me.

He rubbed his jaw with a smirk. “Had fun tonight?”

I rolled my eyes and sucked my teeth. Turning back toward my drawer, I found a pair of pajamas to wear to bed. “I was barely there long enough to have any fun, and you know that.” I was so angry I slammed the drawer so hard it shook the dresser.

“You were there long enough, and we missed you.” He shrugged, and I knew he didn’t regret his choice. He would surely do it again too.

I mugged him with a fold of my arms. “Don’t bring Skye into this. You just don’t like to see me having a good time.” I pointed at him for emphasis.

He chuckled, further annoying me. I went stomping past him so I could take my shower. “That’s not true. I love when you have a good time, just not without me. That don’t sit right with my soul.”

I shook my head, trying to fight the smile that wanted to reveal itself. “You’re so obsessed with me.”

I yelped when he smacked me on the ass. “And what about it?”

My steps slowed when I walked into the bathroom to find the pregnancy test I’d taken earlier sitting on the counter. All the blood in my body started to boil, and my heart raced so fiercely I thought it would leave me standing there. When I spun around, Han’some stood behind me with a grin. He was truly pleased with himself, and I wanted to strangle him.

“Why were you in my business?” I questioned with a raised brow.

The smile on his face faded. “Girl, we live in the same house and use the same bathroom every day.”

I stomped my foot because I wasn’t satisfied with that answer. I tossed my hands in the air. “Well, what did you have to put in the trash?”

His head slowly tilted to the side. “Are you really mad I found the test in the trash right now?”

“Um, yeah, ’cause mind your business,” I retorted.

He closed the distance between us so quickly it scared me. Wrapping an arm around my waist, he snatched me into his chest. “You are my business, Adora. Stop fucking playing with me. I pay so much attention to you that I know the brand and absorbency you like for the tampons you wear.”

Like second nature, my body melted into him. His exhales tickled my neck, along with his facial hair. I giggled then put my hands on his chest. Using all the force I could muster, I pushed him away from me. “Move.” I didn’t want to be close to him right now. I wanted him out of my face.

“Why don’t you seem happy about this?” He was studying my face so hard that I had to look away.

“Because I’m not,” I replied, finally finding the courage to stare him in the eyes.

The cloud of sadness that fell over him like a blanket made me feel like I was going to fall through the floor. For a minute, he didn’t say or do anything. He just stood there, staring at the floor and toiling in the gravity of my words. Finally, his head slowly bobbed up and down, then he backed away. “Word.”

For some reason, that one word felt like an arrow to the heart. My eyes swelled with tears, and I collapsed against the counter. Glancing down, I picked up the positive test resting by my hand. The word pregnant was the last thing I saw before the world became a blurry mess from my forceful sobs.

The voice in my head wouldn’t shut the fuck up for even a second to let me breathe. Instead, my mind kept replaying Koi saying she wasn’t happy about being pregnant. Children were a blessing from above, and considering she knew how much a family of my own meant to me, I expected her to take the news better. But she hadn’t, and I was left questioning everything.

Was she not happy because she didn’t think I would be a good enough father? Was she not completely committed to our marriage and would one day walk away with my heart in her hands? Was she regretting her decision to get involved with me because she didn’t have genuine feelings for me? I yanked the fitted sheet down around the corner of the mattress at just the possibility.

I shook my head with a deep sigh. There was no way she could be faking her feelings. She wore them on her sleeve for the world to see. Whenever we were around each other, we were sucked into a dimension where only our consciousnesses resided, and neither hands nor attention were kept from one another. That girl had become my entire world in a short amount of time. I wasn’t too macho to admit that, in my opinion, no good day started without her being in my arms.

The thoughts continued to come while I busied my hands with making our bed. Koi hadn’t come out of the bathroom yet, and I wondered if her mind was as chaotic as mine. Glancing at the door, I wished I had the ability to see what was happening on the other side.

Once everything was in place the way we liked it, I sat on the edge and waited. On one hand, I could give her space, but my heart ached at the thought of there being any distance between us. So, that meant the only option I had was to respect her enough to be okay with whatever decision she made regarding the child we’d created.

I slowly lifted my eyes toward the bathroom when I heard the door crack open. Koi paused in the doorway when she saw me waiting for her. She wore a pink, silk pajama short set with a floral-designed bonnet on her head. Below her eyes were two patches to keep the skin there looking youthful and plump. Just seeing her in our bedroom dressed like that made me certain that I could never be away from this woman. I was happiest to see her in her most natural state, and I still felt nothing but awe because her beauty radiated brighter than any star, planet, or moon.