I crawl, reposition, and fight through the onslaught of sensation—sirens overlapping, my breathing too loud in my ear, the sour stench of trash rising from somewhere below.
My focus blurs for half a second, until discipline takes over.
Locking my breathing down to something sustainable, I check my sightline again. The asset is still moving, shepherded now, pace quickening.
“Central,” I say. “Escort just changed cadence. They know we’re here.”
“Copy,” another agent says. “Adjusting approach vectors.”
A drone hums overhead, barely audible, its shadow sliding across the street like a magician playing with vapor. The second man glances up, just once. Enough.
Despite the protest from my shoulder, I push myself upright and shift position. “Central, there’s a window in five, four, three, two, one…”
Every word costs me something, but when the flash-bang goes off at street level—and the crowd that never existed bursts from doorways—it’s worth it.
The asset disappears into the confusion.
We extract under cover of the chaos left from the flash-bang.
I keep moving until the adrenaline drains enough for my body to collect its due.
My arm hangs loose. Dislocated—or close enough.
The medic swears quietly as he assesses me. “You didn’t say it was this bad.”
“I said it was compromised,” I reply. “You didn’t ask for details.”
He snorts despite himself, popping it back in with practiced efficiency. I breathe through it, teeth clenched, eyes unfocused until the pain fades to a dull throb and the bulkhead comes into view again.
“Don’t move it,” the medic says as he immobilizes my arm in a sling.
I bristle, the rough fabric scraping my neck. If he hadn’t given me a shot of morphine, I’d be a lot less forgiving. But for now, I shove the sensation down where it can’t distract me—or make the rest of the flight unbearable.
Back in Seattle, nothing feels right. The pain isn’t sharp anymore. It’s structural. Something fundamental has shifted and isn’t interested in shifting back. Stillness isn’t enough. My shoulder is unstable—even trapped in this irritating brace. Like it doesn’t trust itself any longer.
At first, everyone’s optimistic. They schedule surgery in two weeks—once the swelling goes down—but ten days later, the orthopedic surgeon calls me in. He studies my scans too carefully. Flipping between images. Making soft, repetitive sounds in the back of his throat that scrape at my nerves.
My thumb traces the edge of the ring on my left index finger. The rough texture of the tiny diamonds in the pavé band helps me focus when everything around me feels like it’s spinning out of control.
When he finally turns to me, his expression is neutral in a way I’ve learned to distrust.
“You’re lucky, Agent Calder.”
I don’t respond. Luck is irrelevant.
“If the bullet had hit an inch lower, you’d have lost fine motor control in your right hand. But the cartilage that keeps your shoulder seated hasn’t healed as well as we’d like. I’m afraid surgery is no longer an option.”
I flex my fingers. They respond. I rotate my wrist. Fine.
I lift my arm a few inches against the brace, testing gently—and feel the hitch. Not pain. A brief, unmistakable slip. Like the joint is deciding whether to cooperate.
I stop before it finishes the thought.
“Long term prognosis?” I ask.
He blows out a breath, checks the report in front of him, then meets my gaze.
“You’ll regain range of motion,” he says. “Strength, too. With rehab.”