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“Hey,” I say softly. “You’re doing great.”

He stares at his hand like it betrayed him. “Yeah. Nailed the ‘almost lifted my arm’ thing. Really crushed it.”

“George.” He sighs, leans his head back against the pillow, eyes closing. For a moment, he looks older. Tired in a way sleep won’t fix.

“I’m supposed to be good at this,” he says quietly. “Moving. Lifting things. Carrying people. Carrying myself.”

“You almost died,” I say. “I think your muscles are allowed to be confused.” His jaw locks, but he doesn’t answer.

I reach for his hand and slide my fingers between his, careful and slow. His eyes open. He looks at our joined hands. Then at me. I brace for him to pull away, but he doesn’t. His fingers just curl back around mine, tentative at first.

“Okay,” he says, his voice softer.

“Okay.”

We start sharing meals when he’s allowed to eat more than just mush things. He sustained severe injuries to his abdomen, and his digestive system was a bit compromised for a while.

I smuggle in real food when I can, shoved into my bag: sandwiches, little containers of pasta, cookies wrapped in napkins. I sit cross-legged in bed, and we eat together, the tray between us. These little moments transform him from an exhausted patient to the man I know from his letters. The man who teases me about my coffee habit, who calls my handwriting ‘tilted’, who admitted I matter to him as if it were both the hardest and easiest thing in the world at once.

Whatever this is, I don’t want to let it go.

The doctor came in to discuss next steps, transportation, and related matters. But he also shared that he is not returning to the military life he’s used to. They might be discharging him. Which was...predictable in a way, but hearing it hits different.

He doesn’t argue, but he doesn’t agree, either. He just goes quiet.

The doctor explains it in clinical words: motor impairment, risk assessment, field liability. He’s careful and respectful, but the bottom line doesn’t change. George can’t do what he used to do. Not the same way. Maybe not ever.

“We can reassign you stateside,” the doctor says. “There are roles that would benefit from your experience. Training. Strategy. Advisory. But field work…”

George’s jaw locks. “I get it. I won’t be going back to combat.” He says finally.

I’m standing in the corner, nauseous and helpless, clutching a cup of coffee that’s gone cold in my hands. The doctor leaves. The door clicks shut, and silence fills the room.

I wait.

He stares at the ceiling for a long time. Then he says, voice flat, “Well. That’s that. Almost twenty years of career just down the drain.”

My heart cracks. “George,” I say softly.

He doesn’t look at me. “It was going to happen eventually. Old dog, new tricks. Or no tricks now, I guess.”

“That’s not what he said.”

“That’s what he meant.” There’s no humor in his tone now. None of the dry wit he uses to soften hard things. This is just… resignation.

I cross the room and sit on the edge of the bed. “You’re still you,” I say. “Combat or not. Uniform or not. Military job or not. None of that changes who you are.”

He lets out a low breath. “That’s easy for you to say.”

“I can understand it’s not easy for you to accept,” I answer. “I just said what’s true. The job doesn’t define you. Even if you have been doing it for almost twenty years.”

He looks at me then. Really looks. Eyes sharp, searching. “You’re the only one who’s going to treat me like I’m not broken, aren’t you?” he asks quietly.

The question cuts clean through me. “I don’t think you’re broken,” I say. “I think you’re… refurbished.”

His mouth twitches despite himself. “Refurbished, huh?”

“Yes,” I say. “Like a cellphone or a computer that was going to stop working but someone fixed it, so it works like new even though it is not. Not less, just rearranged.” He stares at me for another long heartbeat.