He opens his mouth.
I open mine.
Neither of us say anything.
This is, in the history of human communication, a new low.
I have faced down Connor Brennan’s stare across a table and held my ground.
And right now I cannot find a single word in any language I speak for this particular moment.
“Morning,” Cillian finally offers, and his voice sounds uncertain, like he’s not really sure what to say.
“Morning,” I return, with equivalent caution.
Silence.
I cross to the dresser because having my back to him is infinitely preferable to eye contact. I need to put on jewelry, and this is a good reason to be over here. I am not avoiding looking at him because of the shirtless situation or because of anything else. This is purely logistical.
“So,” I start.
“A mistake,” he says immediately from behind me.
He sounds certain, like he rehearsed it, which—did he rehearse it?
Was he lying there while I was in the shower deciding what to say?
The idea of that is somehow worse and I shove it away.
“Obviously. This was clearly from proximity and frustration. It can’t happen again,” he finishes
“Obviously,” I agree, to the dresser, my fingers stilling over a pair of diamond earrings. “Agreed. Yes.”
“Boundaries.”
“Boundaries,” I confirm, putting the earrings on with more force than necessary. “Clear ones.”
“Right.”
“Right.”
I turn around.
He’s looking at me with emotionless blue eyes, and I look back at him with what I intend to be equally neutral, though it probably reads as a woman who is maintaining composure through sheer brute force of will.
“Good,” I tell him. “Glad we’re on the same page.”
“Same page,” he agrees.
“Great.”
“Great,” he says.
I pick up my bag and walk to the door.
I leave with my spine straight and the full Santoro composure locked into place.
I am out of the apartment before either of us is forced to say anything that would make this worse, which is, all things considered, a significant achievement.