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They talked through dinner about the new neighborhood her dad had his eye on and mapped out a timeline of when he hoped to put the condo on the market. They spoke about the penthouse in Brooklyn, still sitting unsold. He’d been shocked to learn that Hayley had turned down every offer so far, but he said he trusted her judgment.

When they’d finished eating, Hayley cleared the dishes from the table before slipping down the hallway, back toward her old bedroom. If her dad was really planning on selling the place, now was as good a time as any to sort through the pieces of her life she had left behind.

She started with her closet, most of which was still occupied by high school track warm-ups and her old varsity jacket, hanging exactly where she’d left it. But then she spotted a box she didn’t recognize, tucked into a corner on the floor. She pulled it out and sat beside it, brushing her fingers over the sheet of paper that had been taped to the top. Scrawled across it was her mother’s handwriting.

Hayley’s Treasures.

She traced the letters with her fingertips as if she might feel her mom in every curve. She lifted the lid and found keepsakes from her childhood that her mom had quietly and lovingly preserved.

There was her favorite baby blanket, the one she had refused to sleep without. She pulled out a stuffed Dopey from Snow White and the Seven Dwarves, the one her dad had bought her at Disney World when she was eight years old. Dopey’s bright, goofy grin had always made him her favorite dwarf.

There was a book filled with baby photos, notes about her first days, and the hospital wristbands both she and her mother had worn the day she was born. There were old school projects, essays scribbled with teachers’ praises, and multiple report cards lined with straight A’s.

Tucked into the side of the box was a stack of envelopes held together by a weathered elastic band. She lifted them out, her breath catching when she saw that each one contained more of her mother’s handwriting.

“Dad, what are these?” Hayley asked, stepping into her father’s study with the stack of thin white envelopes trembling slightly in her hands.

He squinted, leaning forward to see what she was holding. He set his glass of scotch onto a marble coaster with a soft clink as his eyes sharpened in recognition.

“Wow,” he breathed. “I forgot about those. Where did you find them?” He looked up at her from behind his broad wooden desk, something shifting in his expression.

“They were in a box in my closet.”

Sadness flickered through his eyes. “Your mother started writing letters to you and your brother the day you were born. I found them in our room after she passed, so I tucked them into each of your old school boxes with the rest of the stuff she had saved. I thought you’d gone through it years ago—way back then.”

Hayley tried to recall, but her memories from that time were fuzzy. She’d blocked out so much just to survive it. “I’ve never seen these before. I must’ve shoved the box in my closet and forgotten about it.”

“Well, I’m glad you found them now. She wrote one every year on your birthday. I was never allowed to read them, of course.” He laughed. “She always said that one day, when you were older and had kids of your own, she’d give them to you, to look back on your life.”

The knowledge hit Hayley hard, sharp, and unexpectedly deep. Something in her chest tightened, settling, as if a piece she’d been missing had suddenly returned to her. All this time, her mother’s love had been waiting quietly in a box she had never known to open.

“I’ll come back and help you get this place ready to sell,” Hayley promised, eager to be back in her own apartment. “Thanks for dinner, Dad. I really am happy for you. Let me know when you want to get together with Alice.” She kissed her dad’s cheek once before sliding her mom’s letters into her purse and saw herself out.

TWENTY-FOUR

TWO WEEKS HAD PASSED SINCE MADDIE’S return to LA. She had spent the first seven days in a fog of disbelief, trying to make sense of what had happened to her that summer. No one in California knew she had come home early, and she used it as an excuse to barricade herself inside her own house. The rush of her brief, intense romance had collapsed under its own weight, and she was left reeling in the fallout. Heartbreak settled into her like a full-body bruise, and tears fell in hot, silent waves.

Then the sadness curdled into bitter anger. More than once, she found herself pacing her living room, hands clenched into fists at her sides, cursing her own naivety.

Maddie spent the second week forcing herself out of isolation, determined to leave her four months in New York behind. LA was in the middle of an abnormally hot October, and she jumped at the excuse to host her friends for a few late-summer “Sun and Seltzer” pool days.

She leaned into her acting skills, smiling through stories about her trip to the East Coast and gushing over how beautiful Caitlin had looked as a bride. She did her best to let her friends carry the rest of the conversations, preferring silence to the exhaustion of masking her emotions. She focused on each of their updates from the summer, using their words to fill the space where her own thoughts threatened to spill over.

But every time night came, the performance slipped away. Her wide smile and bright laughter would fade, leaving Maddie alone with the unbearable weight of a broken heart.

Her second Friday back in LA, Maddie’s phone rang right on schedule, the incoming FaceTime filling her screen.

“Cait, you really don’t have to keep checking on me,” Maddie answered the call. She appreciated it—she really did—but part of her just wanted to move forward.

“I’m not!” Caitlin protested. “This time,” she added with a smile. “Did you see the email from Sandy?”

“Hang on, let me look.” Maddie set the phone down and opened her laptop. Her email was already pulled up, and the latest message from Sandy sat at the top. The subject line read—ESMÉE OFFER. Her eyes skimmed the message before she clicked on the attached contract.

“Wow.”

Maddie didn’t realize she’d said the word out loud until she heard Caitlin respond from the other end of the call.

“I know, right? It feels like a no-brainer, but I wanted to see where your head was at.”