Page 46 of Learning to Trust

“I would like you to give me permission to make all your decisions when it involves your life and work. If you do set deadlines, talk to me so together we can ensure you remain in balance and alert. I want you to follow my instructions even when we are not together. What do you think?”

David thought about what I'd said before answering. "If I submit to you completely, I wouldn't have to stress or worry about things."

"No, you wouldn't because you could bring issues to me, and I'd be able to help you resolve them. I have the experience to know what a sub needs but if you disagree with me at any time, we'll discuss it further. At the moment neither of us has clear boundaries which is frustrating me and causing you distress."

“I want you to be my Dom, Sir, and take care of everything outside of what I am actually doing for work. As I wouldn’t interfere with how you change a lock, I don’t want interference with how I formulate programs.”

"Of course, I wouldn't tell you what to do with work, only how to align it with your life."

"Please don't ask me to call you or the others Sir in public. Maybe in time, I will be willing but not yet."

“That’s acceptable.”

"So where do we go from here, Sir?"

"I want you to stay here tonight so I can ensure you are well-rested."

“You don’t trust me to go home and sleep?”

I tilted my head and David laughed.

"Fair point. I will need to earn your trust back. I thought one of your major rules was that I didn't stay here?"

“Let’s say I’m bending the rules this one time, but I won’t be in bed with you.”

David's disappointment was clear on his face, and didn't that just send a dagger into my heart? I didn't want to see him upset, disappointed, or distressed.

“One more thing—I am extremely proud of your resolve and the determination you showed earlier in trying to follow my instructions and I feel you deserve to be rewarded.”

“Sir, I’m confused. You told me I wasn’t to come yet I did without permission.”

"Yes, but David, you are a brand-new sub who hasn't developed the ability to take command of your body yet. I have pushed you much harder than I probably should have because I recognize how strong you are. I am testing your limits and you did very well, but your stubbornness will be both your success and your downfall if it is left unchecked."

David laughed. "My mom used to tell me I was the most even-tempered, easy-going boy she knew but I was more stubborn than any goddamn mule on the planet."

It was my turn to laugh. "She had you pegged. Your reward will be dinner with me tomorrow night at Romani followed by ice cream at Cool Stone and a fuck back here when you shall be permitted to come."

“Thank you, Sir. I will look forward to it very much, I haven’t been there before, but I’ve heard it is very high class and the food is exquisite.”

"Friends of mine own the place and it is usually very difficult to secure a table, but they make one available for me on request. I may consider a drink and dancing at the Griffin Club, which is also very exclusive, as future rewards, but we shall wait and see."

“I will do my best to obey, Sir.”

David’s stomach grumbled loudly, and it reminded me he hadn’t had dinner. “When did you last eat?”

“I don’t remember, Sir.”

"If you miss a meal again you will be punished, and I will make it creative. I'll heat up a steak for you."

“May I have water, Sir? Coffee or beer will keep me awake.”

“Of course.” I stood, leaned over, and captured David’s lips in a crushing kiss. “After you eat I’m going to fuck you into oblivion.”

“I don’t mind, Sir.”

After squeezing his hand, I made my way downstairs, feeling happier now things appeared to be on steady ground.

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