Page 21 of Forgotten Prejudice

Rounding the truck, Kai stopped right before me. Moving his eyes up and down my body, he touched the hem of my hoodie. “That’s cute,” he said, ignoring what I’d just asked.

“Kai—”

“Lilac was always your color.”

He was acting weird, even more so as he stepped closer.

“Are you listening to me?”

“I get why Zoe wanted it, although it wouldn’t look as good on her.”

Why was he saying that all of a sudden while moving his hands to grab my hips?

“Everything was okay until you decided to confess,” he whispered, his eyes not meeting mine. “Everything was fine until you changed it.” There was anger in his voice, anger that made me feel guilty.

So guilty.

“You could have just lied. Told me it was all bullshit and that you weren’t gay, but instead, you had to be honest?” His mouth twisted like speaking hurt him.

“It’s who I am.”

He let out a fake laugh. “Seriously? After years of keeping it a secret, suddenly, it’s who you are?”

His words reeked of hate the same way his breath reeked from booze and vomit.

“You could have lied and saved us from this shit, but you didn’t.” He leaned closer, his lips hovering over my skin. “And now, I can’t stop thinking about you.” While keeping one hand on my hips, he moved the other to my face. “I can’t help but think what it would be like to kiss you again.” He dragged the pads of his fingers over my lips. “To hold you.” He grabbed me tighter until our bodies were pressed together. “To fuck you.”

Despite his words and how close he held me, it wasn’t lust driving his actions but pain.

Disgust.

His bottom lip trembled as his whole face twisted with hurt. “No matter what I try to do to make those sick thoughts go away, they won’t.”

Sick. My love for him wasn’t natural but a perversion. Something he wished wasn’t there. Something I wished wasn’t there.

My eyes stung, and my throat turned dry with the tears I tried to swallow back. No matter how right kissing Soren felt or how kind Mom and Aiden were when I came out, when faced with reality, I once again felt ashamed. I believed that Kai blaming me for something I couldn’t control was justified. His fury was okay because I ruined what we had.

Taking a deep breath, I placed my arm between us in an attempt to make him move away. Kai didn’t budge and, in a sharp move, grabbed my body and turned me around so I faced the car.

My nerves kicked in at the same time my heart rate increased.

“K-Kai?”

“You ruined me,” he hissed, his hands going down my body while he lowered down until his lips grazed my nape. “You fucking ruined me.”

The next thing I knew, he pulled my pants and boxer briefs down to my thighs while pushing my head against the hood of the truck. Fear struck me, and I tried to look over my shoulder, only to find him fumbling with his zipper.

Standing here, with my bare ass out and my body bent, I could still fight him. I knew I had the strength to push him off me if I wanted to, but that was the thing—I didn’t.

I was the one who’d brought Kai to this place, where he was crying his heart out while rubbing his hard dick on my ass. I was the reason he consumed all this shit that was ruining him from the inside. I was the one to break him first, so it was only fair for him to break me, too. And so, I didn’t push him off and instead closed my eyes and bit my lip as he began moving his hips.

He didn’t penetrate me but instead pushed his dick between my thighs and used them to get off. I never imagined being held by him would make me feel this lonely, but it did. With each thrust, more of his tears landed on my back and neck; each weighed more than the other.

He didn’t ask for permission to do this, but he also didn’t force himself on me. Not in the slightest. I allowed him to do this, to use me, because it felt like the least I could do after pushing him to this position.

Hugging his arms around me, he desperately held on to me as he increased his pace until his body shuddered, and he swore under his heavy breath. His cock throbbed and pulsed a second before he spilled between my thighs.

“S-Shit,” he hissed, then stepped back, giving me space to digest what just happened.