Page 95 of Knot in the Wedding Cards

This is the first time in five years one has touched me like the wanting was mine to spend, not his to collect.

"Listen to me," he breathes. "They love you. I believe it. I watched it come off all three of them like heat off summer asphalt, and I believe every degree. But a pack cannot love a woman the right way without a leader who understands one thing those three have never once learned. How rare you are. How impossibly, catastrophically rare an Omega like you becomes the second she stops being available to them. They forgot. They got comfortable in the smoke and called it home."

Outside, the engine cuts. A door.

Sawyer doesn't so much as flinch. He keeps his eyes on mine, down here in the dark, as though there's nothing on that road worth the interruption.

"So let me teach them," he whispers. "Let me be the one who leads. Let me force them to understand exactly what they're standing to lose, and let them earn you back at the price you're actually worth — or not at all. Let me fight this the right way, since none of them will." His thumb strokes once more along my jaw. "Will you let me do that, Blooming Apricot? Will you let me lead?"

Footsteps on the dirt outside.

A voice I know in my sleep, calling a name into the dark. It would be Beckett. He'd be the one to comb a night road for a woman who just told him she was done.

A knuckle raps the glass above us. My whole body locks against his shin. Sawyer cracks the window two inches — night air spills cold over me — and answers without a single hitch, easy as a man asked the time. Just out clearing his head. No, he hasn't seen her. Yes, he'll call if he does. Beckett's voice comes back rough and wrecked and working hard to stay level, and it asks something lower, something I can't quite catch. Sawyer's answer I catch fine.

"If she wanted to be found, Shaw, you'd have found her already."

A long pause.

Then boots, turning away. An engine.

The slow crunch of a truck easing back onto the road, carrying three men who came looking one beat too late.

The dark settles again.

It's just us now — his breath, my breath, the tick of the cooling engine. I stay folded at his feet a moment longer than Ineed to, because the second I sit up I have to become a woman with a plan again.

Down here, hidden, held, I don't.

Down here I'm only someone a man chose to protect, and I'd forgotten the exact shape of that.

I look up at the man curved over me like a roof —this stranger who sprinted through a whole town in ruined shoes, who asked permission before he hid me and asked again before he offered to burn for me— and I feel the last five years of carrying my own weight go loose in my chest all at once.

I nod.

Slow. Once.

Because I finally understand the thing I've been starving for, under all the arithmetic and all the armor and all the flawless happily-ever-afters I built for other people while believing in exactly none for myself.

It was never the winning.

It was never even the being loved.

I knew they loved me, and it never once kept them.

It was this.

To be fought for.

Just once.

CHAPTER 16

The Elephant In The Road

~SAWYER~

The whole art of my profession is looking like a man with nothing to hide while you are, in point of fact, hiding everything.