I’ve had to fight that voice all day, every day.
“I wasn’t sure,” she says. “That you would want to see me anyway.”
Even so, I can’t help but check out this new stranger shaped exactly like Mia. She flits slightly ahead of me, her footfalls light when we reach the sand.
I’ve got a bit of a hobble going in comparison. I watch her purposefully slow her steps to lag behind, to be with me.
“Are you kidding?” I fight the urge to grab her hand. I catch her eye, and she averts her gaze, casts it out on the ocean.
“No,” she says. “I mean it. I wasn’t sure if you’d want to see me or not. Now that I’m not…”
She doesn’t finish her thought out loud.
She’s quit with the sundresses, all the outfits I thought were hers. Nothing more than a disguise. She looks amazing in these linen pants and her collared shirt. She could drop my jaw wearing anything. I briefly visualize her FBI uniform from my fugue state, try to see her face in my mind when she shoutedFBI; freeze!
And saved my life.
A gull cries at us from its vantage point on the sand. Mad we don’t have any french fries for him to steal.
“You saved my life,” I blurt out, ashamed of my own silence, my pouting, the internal tantrum I’d been having offand on throughout my hospital stint. Yes, the whole situation is shocking, and I miss Mia like all hell. But that’s not this woman’s fault. “Thank you.”
“Oh, no need to thank me. I was just—”
“Stop it.” I can’t bear to hear that she wasjustdoing her job, can’t be reminded again. When we were fucking, was she just doing her job?
That was real. Despite everything, I know our love is real.
She stops in her tracks and studies me.
I walk it back a notch in my mind: the anger that’s covering my fear, fear that she’s done with me. She doesn’t need me the way I thought she did. But maybe she wants me. Maybe she’ll let me be a part of her life. “Let me thank you, I mean.”
“Oh,” she says. “Well, you’re welcome.” She turns to continue on down the beach, but I hold back where I stand.
“What’s your name, stranger?”
“Didn’t Agent Rossi tell you?”
“Sure she did. But I want to hear it from you.”
She smiles faintly. “Daphne. Daphne Munro.” She sticks out her hand. “Nice to meet you.”
I shake it. “Nice to meet you, Daphne.”
“Likewise,” she says. I hold her hand for too long, and her smile widens. It’s a good sign.
“I know you’re a busy FBI agent, and, ah…”
“Uh, not necessarily.”
“What?”
“I resigned.”
“Because of me?”
She shrugs. “I did what I came to do. Against all odds. And now I think if I stayed on, I would only hurt the case. I hope they put him away for a long, long time.”
“Me too,” I say, because I feel the same way about Daphne as I did about Mia. I only want her to be safe, protected. Happy. And by my side. “Well…hey, are you married?”