“Mara,” she says.
“Hmm?”
“Do you think my mommy liked ballet?”
“Do you remember if she said anything about it?”
“Mommy died when I was little, before I can remember anything.”
Foot—meet mouth. “I’m sorry, Sylvie.”
“Do you?” she presses.
“I don’t know,” I murmur. “I think you should ask your daddy about that.”
“Yeah.” She looks out the window. “Maybe I will.”
When we arrive at the store, I park and go to the backseat. I open the door and kneel, looking sternly at Sylvie. “You need to stay in my sight at all times,” I say. “And you’ve got the phone, yeah?”
She reaches into her pocket, proudly displaying the simple black phone Livia gave me for her. It has my number programmed into it.
“If I get lost, I call you or Daddy. I do that by pressing the down button and clicking on your name with the green button.”
I nod. “Exactly.”
“No more of this face now.” She makes an overly exaggerated worried face that makes me laugh. “Can we go? Please?”
I take her hand and lead her inside. I watch her as she walks up and down the aisles, talking confidently with the staff. They know her here, so it makes it easier. But I still make sure to keep an eye on her. We spend some time picking out shoes and a tiara for her to wear, then walk toward the car.
“Want to get some food somewhere?” I ask. “A burger? Something tasty.”
She grins. “Uh,duh.”
“Mara?”
The voice makes me freeze. Surely I’m imagining this. Callum, here?
I quickly open the car door. “In the car, please.”
Sylvie looks at me, disappointed. “Why?”
“Just wait in the car. Two minutes.”
She climbs inside. I close then lock it, then turn toward the voice.
Callum, my ex, wearing a letterman jacket with a mountain of product on his brown hair. He’s handsome, or so everybody was keen to tell me when we were together. I thought the same at the beginning. Before his personality turned him ugly.
I move away when he tries to hug me. I would’ve sunk into that embrace once. Not because I truly cared, but because I was desperate for belonging. Eager for anybody to notice me. To see me as a real person. And Callum was great at pretending to be that man.
“Okay, woah. Chill.”
“Hi,” I mutter.
“You’re acting like I’m some monster, Maddy. Relax.”
“I’ve told you not to call me Maddy,” I say, voice tired. When he smirks, I’m annoyed at myself. He always had a way of making me feel two inches tall.
I’ve always hated when he insisted on calling me Maddy, it’s not even my name. I once made the mistake of telling him that, only for him to fly into a rage before telling meIwas overreacting.