Page 7 of American Sweethearts

It was still sort of unreal that my three best friends were coupled off, getting married, engaged. It all felt so fucking grown-up. Seeing Patrice in love and not afraid to show it, Camilo actually getting his fairy-tale love, and Nesto living his dream with Jude up in Ithaca…it was the greatest gift. But also a reminder of what I didn’t have.

I looked over at Priscilla, who was busy chatting with Jude and Easton and I wondered if, like me, she was thinking that the two of us should’ve figured it out already. I felt like I’d spent half my life certain I was meant to be with her and the other half trying to figure out why we never seemed to work.

I was still mulling it over when I was flanked on either side by Nes and Patrice, who probably saw me sulking by myself in the back row, and came to do a welfare check.

“You looking like a Drake video back here, my guy.” That was Nesto. Asshole.

I pursed my lips while they grinned at me. “Fuck off, I’m just chilling and wondering how it is that Camilo’s still running my life. Why are we up so damn early? We’re supposed to be on vacation.”

“See, that’s where you’re wrong. We’re here to be at Milo’s beck and call and y’all know he’s going to ride our asses allfucking week.” Patrice grunted in agreement as he spanned his freakishly long and beefy arms over the entire back row.

When he finally spoke, he could barely keep the grin off his lips. “You think with the way Tom looks at him that the guy would be fucking some of that edginess out of him, but that fucker just can’t stop bossing people around.”

Nesto just shook his head and laughed at Patrice and, even as moody as I was, I had to crack a smile.

“Speaking of dick-related issues.” Nesto paused, his eyes trained right where my mom was chatting it up with Pris and her dad. “You gotta stop with the glaring, pa. I thought you said you were keeping things chill with Priscilla.” There was just a hint of an edge there and I knew that was Nesto’s protective side. Looking out for his cousin.

I let out a long breath and rubbed my hands over my face, hard. “I’m trying, Nes, but I don’t know what’s gotten into me on this trip. Since I saw her getting on the plane yesterday, it’s like I can’t get my head straight. I swear I’m not looking to start up something with Pris.”

I winced even as I said it. “I mean, at least not anything that she’s not up for. I promised myself I wouldn’t mess with Pris unless she made the first move.” I glanced at Nesto, whose face, for once, was devoid of emotion. I knew I always put him between a rock and hard place whenever shit with me and Pris started up over the years. “I fucked up with her last time and I don’t plan to miss my shot if she gives another one, but I’m not starting anything. And even if I was, I wouldnotdo it here where I have the entire peanut gallery ready to take a bite out of me.”

That, at least, got me a laugh.

“I’m not going to begrudge for biding your time, I know I would’ve waited an eternity for a chance to make things right with Jude.” Nesto gripped my shoulder hard and settled in the seat next to mine as he looked up at where his partner wasin deep conversation with Nurys, Nesto’s mom. “I’m glad I didn’t have to, but I know what it’s like to know in your gut that everything you ever wanted slipped through your fingers because of your own stupidity.”

I closed my eyes, feeling the weight of that hard truth, not wanting to get into any of this. Pris and I had a moment on the plane, but that didn’t mean I had free rein to step up to her and ask for things. Like Nesto said, she was worth me waiting for her to be ready, and I would have to learn how to live with the possibility that she may never feel ready again.

“Are you coming?” I must’ve dozed off despite all the chattering in the limo-bus because the next thing I knew, I was opening my eyes to the vision of Priscilla Yudelka Gutierrez leaning over me in a halter top. She was offering me a view I was not equipped to deal with at that exact moment.

I quickly leaned back and made a show or rubbing my fists over my eyes. “I’m coming. Did those two clowns really leave me back here?”

Pris gave me a funny look and angled her head toward the front of the bus. “Patrice and Nesto told me to come get you. They jumped out to go to the bathroom before we go down to the caves.”

Yeah, right. Knowing those two they were probably up to something.

“The bus driver is getting our tickets and the guide that’s showing us around, so there’s no rush.” She pointed out of the window where most of our group was standing around by the bus chatting and passing around snacks and water bottles.

I looked around, trying to get my shit together. I grabbed the small backpack I’d brought with me and my Yankees fitted and stood up, just in time to watch her walk out of the bus. I got a full view of her strong, dark brown back and shoulders. Her shorts hugged her ass so tightly I didn’t have to try very hard to remember how it felt to hold on to those curves as I pushed into her.

I literally had to shake myself under control as I followed her out. After all these years, Priscilla’s body and the way she moved turned me on like nothing else could. I knew exactly where a soft touch made her purr and where my teeth could make her scream. She could do the same for me. But like I’d told Nesto and Patrice, I was going to keep my hands and thirst to myself this week.

The cave turned out to be pretty cool. It was a huge system of underwater tunnels with hundreds of Taino paintings and hieroglyphs. It was sort of unreal to see signs that there actually had been people here before colonization razed through everything. I was walking around looking at some of the lit drawings, taking a breather from the group, when I felt her come up behind me. I didn’t have to turn around to know it was Priscilla, I could recognize even the sound of her fucking feet.

“You’re worrying the mothers, Juan Pablo. They sent me to find you.” I could hear the grin in her voice. No matter how old we got, all our moms regressed to when we were in elementary school whenever we travelled together.

“I’ll be right there, just needed a minute.”

“The hovering and micro-managing every move is already getting to me. You should’ve seen Mamí telling me how to open a water bottle just now. Because apparently Dominican water bottles twist different.” The exasperation in her voice did nothing to hide the humor.

“Did Papi try to read the signs in English for you?” I asked, and could tell she was laughing from the way she was huffing. “They hammer Spanish into us our entire lives and as soon as we get here they start acting like they need to translate every word.” I turned around and found her sporting a grin that perfectly matched mine.

She shook her head, shoulders still shaking from laughter. “They can’t help themselves; they get too excited.”

“I know, which is why I took a moment to myself before impaling myself on one of those rock spikes.”

“They’re stalagmites.” I rolled my eyes while she grinned.

But after a moment, she went back to observing me with a very serious look on her face. She even raised an eyebrow, like she was figuring something out. She came closer, looking at me with an intensity that I hadn’t gotten from her in a long time. Detached and indifferent had been the vibe with her and me, at least for the last few years.