I was falling, losing, tumbling back into the past.
But then...just before I turned rogue and killed everything breathing around me, the girl who forgave me for things that should never be forgiven, moved.
Her head twisted to the side. Her lips kissed my fist that was planted on the floor by her cheek.
I had no idea why she’d kissed me. Why she’d dropped her guard. Why she’d done something so...nicewhen I was being so cruel.
Her gentleness, her sweetness, her wonderful, courageous forgiveness.
It broke me.
It shoved me over the edge into a splintering, shattering release.
I punched into her, over and over, jerking and grunting as pulses of heat shot up my cock and into her.
Again and again.
Eradicating some of the filth from me to her.
Christening her into my twisted world.
Ensuring what I said was true.
She was mine.
Not just for tonight.
Not just for tomorrow.
But for every single day of my sorry existence.
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
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I HAD A DREAM.
A dream where soft fingers trailed through my hair, gentle kisses pressed on my temples, and a warm blanket cocooned my naked body.
I dreamed those soft fingers and gentle kisses gathered me close and held me tight, all while I slipped from aware to unaware.
Whispers invaded the night. Whispers that weren’t just whispers. Whispers that had the power to conjure images in my head, paint a story I never wanted to see, and force me to endure a different kind of life to my blessed one.
There was a boy. Lots of boys. There was a girl. Lots of girls. They all lived in a gilded prison and were only allowed out to play when monsters paid for their company.
They slept with joined hands. They ate with bare fingers. Their tears and blood had blended so often, they were no longer just one butall.
Family.
Married by circumstance, adopted by survival, and forged with unbreakable bonds.
My dream swirled with blacks and grays, revealing a circle of children, waxy skinned and haunted eyed, clinging to each other as the door opened to select another for playtime.
No.
I didn’t want to see.
I didn’t want to know.