Page 43 of Where The Devil Kneels

“I’m sorry,” he finally says, voice barely a whisper. “I shouldn’t have—”

“No,” I interrupt, surprising myself with the certainty in my voice. “You were right. Rushing out there wouldn’t have helped Rafe.”

His thumbs move slightly against my shoulders, not quite a caress, but something close to it. The touch seems unconscious, as if his body is making decisions his mind hasn’t authorized. His eyes search mine, looking for something I can’t quite name.

“We will help him,” Silas promises. “But strategically. When we can succeed rather than simply adding to the casualty count.”

I nod slowly, acknowledging his point while still feeling the weight of our inaction. “What will they do to him?”

“A night in jail, most likely. Garrow needs to maintain appearances; he can’t simply make Rafe disappear without questions being raised.” His hands finally drop from my shoulders, though he makes no attempt to move away. “Rafe has friends in town, connections. He’s protected by his visibility in ways we aren’t.”

The rational part of me knows he’s right, but it doesn’t ease the guilt churning in my stomach at the thought of Rafe suffering because of his loyalty to this house, to us.

“So what now?” I ask, exhaustion suddenly crashing over me as the adrenaline ebbs.

Silas glances up through the grate, his expression returning to its usual watchful assessment. “Now we wait until we’re certain they’re all gone. Then we need to check what damage they’ve done, what they might have discovered.”

I nod, stepping back slightly in the confined space, needing a moment to process everything: Rafe’s arrest, our first real conflict, and most unsettling, the raw emotion I glimpsed behind Silas’s careful facade.

“And Rafe?” I press, unwilling to simply abandon the subject.

“I’ll contact our allies at the sheriff’s office,” Silas says, his practical nature reasserting itself. “Ensure he’s treated properly. By morning, we’ll have a better sense of what charges Garrow actually intends to pursue.”

It’s the best we can do right now. I know this. Still, as we turn back through the passage, I count Rafe among the many sacrificed to caution and patience, wondering how many more before Garrow falls.

We move through the passages without speaking, the silence between us different now — not the careful quiet of two people avoiding each other, but something that’s been cleared of debris. Rafe’s arrest still sits heavy in my chest. But so does the memory of Silas’s heartbeat under my palm, and the way his voice cracked when he said please.

I’m not sure what to do with any of it. So I follow him, and let the dark do the work for a while.

“You were trying to protect me,” I whisper, breaking the silence. I find myself unexpectedly defending his actions.

He shakes his head slightly, a muscle working in his jaw. “Not an excuse. Never an excuse.” His hand lifts toward my face, hovers in the space between us, trembling visibly, not quite daring to bridge the gap. “I have watched over this house, over its occupants, for twenty-three years. Never once have I…” His voice drops to barely a whisper. “I can’t protect you if you won’t let me.”

His words land like a blow. I see it now — this was never about control. It’s about a man who’s spent decades protecting people from the shadows, suddenly faced with someone he can’t simply watch from afar. Someone who might run headlong into danger despite his every precaution.

I swallow hard, tasting the dust of the passage. “I’ll be careful,” I say finally. “But Rafe is out there because of us. I can’t just hide down here while he pays the price for our safety.”

“I know.” The two simple words contain a universe of understanding. “That’s what makes you…” He trails off, unable or unwilling to complete the thought.

I reach up and catch his hovering hand, pressing his palm against my cheek. His skin is warm despite the tunnel’s chill, fingers rough with callouses. Under my thumb, his pulse thrums, quick, then quicker. For a heartbeat, maybe two, we both forget to breathe. This isn’t like before. No desperate grabbing, no holding back. Just me, choosing this.

“We’ll help Rafe,” I say, releasing his hand before the contact becomes something more than I’m ready for. “I can’t sit here while Garrow has him, but I won't run out half-cocked again.”

Something shifts in his expression, a softening around his eyes, a release of tension held for longer than seems humanly possible. His fingers curl slightly by his side before relaxing fully.

A flicker of orange light catches my attention, filtering through a crack in the wall beside us. Not the steady glow of the oil lamps in the sanctuary chamber, but something more volatile, moving. Firelight.

Silas notices it too, his body instantly alert. “They’ve started it,” he says, voice tight. “The fire. Earlier than I expected.”

He releases my hand and moves to the wall. I press beside him to peer through the crack. In the library beyond, a small flame climbs from a pile of papers in the corner, reaching for my shelves. My stomach drops as I watch fire threaten the one room that had finally felt like home.

I follow him without fighting it, seeing his urgency differently now — not a guard dragging me along, but someone who actually gives a damn. We wind through the maze, every corner putting more distance between us and the destruction above. The crackling fire and breaking glass grow fainter, like waking from a bad dream.

“How bad will it get?” I ask as we descend a tight spiral staircase carved directly into limestone.

“The estate’s main structure is largely stone and won’t burn easily,” Silas replies, his voice steady now that we’re in motion, addressing practical concerns. “The east wing was designed with deliberate firebreaks, a precaution my great-grandfather added after witnessing a similar attempt in 1923.” He glances back at me. “They’ll create enough damage to justify condemnation papers, but won’t succeed in destroying the whole house.”

“You prepared for this specific scenario.” It’s not a question.