Page 61 of Down & Dirty: Rage

When she finally met his eyes, hers were troubled. They also held a bit of annoyance.

Yeah, welcome to my world.

“I’m aware of that, Ash,” she whispered fiercely. “Don’t you think I’ve thought about this? I didn’t show up here impulsively. I showed up with a purpose. I want my first time to be with someone I’m comfortable with. And I trust you completely.”

The problem was, he didn’t trust himself.

Or her decision for him to be her first.

“I ain’t a warm, comfortable blanket, baby. Ain’t a gentle soul. When I bang one out, like it hard and rough. Want nails and teeth diggin’ into my skin. Want skin slappin’. Wanna smack a woman’s ass. Spank her pussy. Drive my dick down her throat while chokin’ her with my hand.”

Her eyes went wide for a split second before she…

Shuddered?

In fear? Or did that turn her on?

The fuck if what he said made his sweet Lyric wet. He had said it all on purpose. To scare her into making a better decision. That might have just backfired and actually solidified her choice.

Maybe he didn’t know Lyric as well as he thought.

She could possibly have secret desires.

Wild fantasies.

Or…she had no idea what the fuck to expect since she was a goddamn virgin.

That last thought was probably the most accurate. But what the fuck did he do with this information?

Stop?

Continue?

Did he really want to be her first?

Of fucking course he did. Butshouldhe be was the real question.

That was a lot of pressure. From what he’d heard, the first time for most women sucked ass.

“Ash,” she whispered.

A touch to his cheek made him realize he had closed his eyes while his brain and his dick argued. “Told you we shouldn’t do this because it would be a mistake. I was fuckin’ right.”

“I want to do this. I simply wanted you to be aware in case I don’t react like all the other women you’ve been with.” All the other women?Holy fuck.

“Of course you have a lot of experience. I’ve known you my whole life and have seen you with plenty of other women. Don’t ever think I’m judging you for that. I think that’ll help when it comes to my first time.”

He groaned under his breath. Talk about performance anxiety.

“I wanted to be honest. Now you need to be completely honest with me, too.”

“Honest? Here’s some fuckin’ honesty for you. Wanna fuck you. Wanna fuck you so goddamn hard and fast that you scream my name, leave scratches all over my back, and cover my dick with your juices. But that don’t mean any of that shit should happen.”

When she squirmed underneath him, he took that as her having a change of heart and began to lift his weight from her.

But she stopped him within seconds. “Okay.”

He cocked an eyebrow at her. “Okay?”