Page 13 of Blades Out
Stop saying thank you.
But gratitude kept bubbling up, overwhelming and impossible to contain. I hadn't lost the job. Hadn't destroyed everything three hours into my first shift. The apartment was still mine. The locks I checked twice every night. The independence I'd fought for.
Safe. For now.
He watched me with those dark, unreadable eyes. Something flickered across his expression—too quick to identify, gone before I could process what it might mean. Recognition? Regret? Nothing at all?
I couldn't tell. Couldn't read him. Every subtle social cue I'd learned to track over the years vanished against whatever wall he'd built between himself and the rest of the world.
"Close the door on your way out."
Dismissal. Clear and absolute.
I nodded. Turned. My hand found the doorknob with embarrassing eagerness—desperate to escape before I could make this worse. Before I could say something else stupid or desperate or revealing.
"And—"
His voice stopped me mid-step. I froze, half-turned toward the door, pulse hammering against my ribs.
What now?
I turned back. Half-in, half-out of the doorway. Caught between staying and leaving, neither option feeling right.
The silence stretched. Thick. Heavy. I scrambled to fill it before it swallowed me whole.
"I'm still learning the machines," I blurted. "The espresso one has this steam wand thing that seems possessed, and Jenna showed me how to use the grinder, but I think I messed up the settings, and—" Stop. Talking. "I'll figure it out. I promise I'll get better at it."
Why was I still talking? He'd dismissed me. Given me permission to leave. But my feet stayed planted on the threshold like they'd forgotten how to move.
He studied me for a long moment. Those dark eyes tracked across my face—searching for something I couldn't name. The attention made my skin prickle, awareness creeping up my spine in a way that should've felt threatening but somehow... didn't.
"Don't rush." His voice dropped lower, almost gentle. Almost. "Be careful."
The words landed like criticism. Heat flooded my cheeks—shame mixing with frustration. Of course, he thought I was careless. Clumsy. Someone who couldn't handle basic tasks without creating disasters. The coffee spill proved it. This rambling mess proved it.
"I will." I straightened my shoulders, forced steel into my voice. "I'll pay more attention. Won't happen again."
Something shifted in his expression. A slight tightening around his eyes—confusion, maybe. Or frustration. He opened his mouth like he wanted to clarify, then closed it again. Reset.
"The machines run hot," he said finally. Each word measured, deliberate. "Steam can burn through skin in seconds. Pay attention to where your hands are."
Oh.
Oh.
He wasn't criticizing my competence. He meant it literally. Don't get hurt. Don't burn yourself. The kind of practical warning anyone might give to someone working around dangerous equipment.
But it sounded like more than that. Something in his tone—low and careful—made the words feel heavier than they should. Like he cared about more than just avoiding another workplace accident.
I didn't know what to do with that.
"Right." I nodded too many times. "Yes. I'll be careful. Thank you."
The air between us felt wrong. Charged with something I couldn't identify. Discomfort radiated from him in waves—the kind of tension that came from wanting to be somewhere else. Anywhere else. His jaw worked like he was grinding down words he refused to say.
He wanted me gone. Wanted this conversation over. Wanted distance between us that I kept accidentally eroding by standing here like an idiot.
But I didn't move.
