Page 54 of Exit: Us
We had our own little thing going on. No one was over here to see what we were doing. I wrapped my arms around his neck, while his grabbed my ass.
Gemini was still in the clothes that he had on all day for work. In the white tee, you could see little smudges of dirt on him, but it was still attractive. He wore black jeans, and he was in his black work boots. He smelled like a man would smell after a long day of work, and here I was, all up under him, soaking it all up. Never a musty smell coming from him. Just a man that put time in on the clock, and it was one of my favorite scents from him.
“We literally can’t be anything else. Like, at this point in the game, we can’t be friends, love. You been taking raw dick from the first time that we explored. I don’t give raw dick to friends, so damn right we a couple now,” he said, lifting one of his hands that were on my ass, only so he could smack it.
“And Gemini, I swear on everything that I love that I don’t do shit like that. I don’t want you to think that I’m just this person that goes around having unprotected sex with men because I promise I don’t. The only guy that I’ve ever had unprotected sex with is my ex. It’s just something about the heat of the moment.It was so special, that it felt like the right thing to do,” I finished, and then I let out a chuckle because you could hear it in my voice that I was in over my head for this man.
“I don’t think that way of you. I think really fuckin high of you. I told you that already. Like you said, that moment was special. My dick clean though, baby. I can show you paperwork if you want to see it,” he said, finalizing it with a kiss on the lips.
I was becoming so obsessed with him, so as I was on top of him, I was smelling his neck, up under his arms, rubbing my lips against his lips, playing in his hair, the whole nine. I felt like this was my safe space. I’ve always been overly affectionate. Not every guy’s love language was physical touch though. With Jacob, he was that way. It was one of those things where you weren’t going to know that he loved you by showing physical touch. Instead, you would know it in his actions, his words, and even in his acts of service. I could tell that I would often annoy him on those times when I would get under him and become overly affectionate. Gemini wasn’t like that with me. He allowed me to do me. He allowed me to sit up under him, smell him, kiss all over his face, and as if we’ve been a couple for years, and he had just become accustomed to my ways, he sat back, enjoying it.
Moments went by, and they were setting up to start the gender reveal. When I saw that, that’s when I removed myself from Gemini’s lap, so that I could stand. I wanted to see the entire thing. I wanted to be up on my feet, feeling as if I was a part of the family, watching to see what the gender was getting ready to be.
“You weird, love. You don’t know nobody over there. You acting like you going to meet the baby,” Gemini said to me, looking at me like I was crazy.
“Gemini, please. You know you want to find out the gender too. If you didn’t, you would have wrapped this up a while ago,so that we could get back on the truck,” I told him, and he flashed a smile at me.
“Nah. We didn’t leave to get back on the truck yet because this your world. We do whatever you want to do. If you want to sit at a park, and watch a strangers gender reveal, then we can do that baby,” this man had a way with words.
He knew what the hell to say to me, and that’s why these past few days, I haven’t been able to keep my legs closed for him. He knew how to talk his way right into some sex. He was so smooth with it too. The things he said would just roll of his tongue so easily.
I watched as the parents to- be made their way to the front of the pavilion. They looked to be a couple in their middle twenties. Looking at the father, his reaction made me smile. You could tell that he was so happy. I wasn’t sure if they had children already, but if they didn’t, judging by how happy they both were, it was obvious that becoming parents meant a lot to them.
The dad was rocking back and forth, smiling big. The mom was doing the same thing. You could tell that she wanted a daughter because she was dressed in a beautiful pink dress. The dad was team boy because he was rocking a nice blue Ralph Lauren button down with denim jeans. They were surrounded by family and friends, and each of them had their phones out, ready to record the gender reveal.
Maybe I was weird like Gemini called me because here I stood, with my hands clasped together, counting down with the rest of the family, and friends.
“5…4..3…2..1,” I counted down with then, and within seconds, blue smoke filled the air.
I smiled, watching the way the dad jumped up, and down. The mom got a little emotional, crying. I wasn’t sure if she was crying because she didn’t get the girl that you could tell she was wishing for, or if she was just filled with so many emotionswatching the dad’s reaction. What I do know is that when the dad grabbed her face, placing both hands on the side of her face, and he kissed her tears away, followed by him embracing her, and throwing his hand in the air to celebrate, it caused me to shed tears of my own.
I was an empath. I’ll cry when I see other people cry. Seeing the way the family was crying, and celebrating with the parents to- be, it got the best of me, and I began to shed tears of my own.
“Amina, that’s weird as fuck, baby. Why you crying?” Gemini asked, reaching his hand out, so that he could pull me to him by the back of the sweatpants that I was wearing.
He sat me in his lap, and I laughed through my tears. I wiped my eyes while looking at him.
“A mixture of everything. That was beautiful. I know I don’t know them, but I don’t have to know them to see that what they have is beautiful. I hope to have that one day too. I want to be able to be someone’s wife, and give babies to my husband,” I was honest with him, telling him what made up a big part of why I had been crying.
I don’t think that I’ve reached a part in my healing journey where I could successfully see another couple out here doing the thing that I had hoped and prayed for without shedding tears. I promise I wasn’t sad though. I was no longer broken like I had been when I got on the truck with Gemini. I was healing, but it didn’t mean that I wasn’t still yearning for those things.
“You’ll get the chance to do that, Amina. Trust me, your day is going to come. Okay?” he asked me.
I nodded my head, and then looked ahead of me, wanting to continue to watch the family celebrate.
A few moments went by, and some of the men that was at the party made their way over to the trash can that wasn’t that far away from us. The dad to-be was walking with them too. Theywere tossing things out into the trash. When they reached us, they smiled at Gemini and I.
“Congrats on your son, man. Not on no weird shit, but me and my girl were sitting over here, and we saw the entire thing go down. Congrats. That’s a blessing,” Gemini said to the dad to-be. He was just as happy as he could be, walking over to Gemini and I. He reached his hand out, so that he could shake Gemini’s and then he did the same thing to me.
“I appreciate that, man. Ya’ll from around here? I’m not picking up on a Louisiana accent,” the dad to- be took notice of. The other men came over as well, and they spoke too. Everyone seemed so nice, and inviting.
“Nah. We’re actually from Miami. I drive trucks. I have my truck parked at the truck stop down the street. We came to the park to just relax out here for a little bit,” Gemini let him know, and he nodded at that.
“Have ya’ll eaten anything yet? Man, we got plenty of food over there. Sent invites to all our family and friends, and all these people made it seem like they were going to come, but they didn’t. We had all that food catered, only for more than half of the people that RSVP’d to not show up. Ya’ll can come join us. We got plenty over there,” he stated.
“It’s cool man. We don’t want to impose. I’ll feel wrong showing up to a party empty handed and eating ya’ll food. It’s okay,” Gemini stated, giving the same answer that I was thinking.
When Gemini said that, that’s when the dad to- be laughed, while shaking his head. He was very handsome. If I had to guess his age, I would say that he was anywhere between 23 to 25. I could hear that beautiful Louisiana accent as he spoke too.
