My stomach was in knots.
I couldn’t breathe right.
I started the engine and pulled out of the driveway too fast, tires screeching against the pavement.
I hit the highway doing seventy.
Then eighty.
Then ninety.
The city blurred past me—streetlights, billboards, the dark stretch of I-10 cutting through New Orleans like a scar.
My mind was racing faster than the car.
A car swerved into my lane without signaling.
I jerked the wheel hard to the right.
The car fishtailed.
For a split second, I felt the tires lose traction—felt the vehicle start to spin out.
My heart slammed into my throat.
I eased off the gas.
Corrected the wheel.
Slowly.
The car straightened out.
I exhaled hard, my hands white-knuckled on the steering wheel.
“Fuck.”
I forced myself to slow down.
But my mind didn’t slow down with it.
I couldn’t let myself go there.
But I was already there.
Already drowning in it.
By the time I pulled onto her street, it was 2:22 AM.
The house was dark except for a single porch light.
I parked in front and got out.
Didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t second-guess.
I walked up to the door and knocked.