Page 91 of Ruined Wrath
“Okay?”
“I’m willing to try.” The words feel fragile, but they’re real. “I can’t flip a switch and go back to how it was before, and to be honest, I’m not sure if that’s even what I want. I don’t want to pretend that this is something casual when it feels like I’m suffocating every time I think about losing you?—”
Fiona throws her arms around my neck, hugging me like she’s afraid I’ll disappear.
I stiffen for half a second, then my hands come up and settle on her waist.
“I’m sorry,” she whispers, her breath tickling my neck. “For all of it. I love you, and I love Scout, and I love this ridiculously huge family. I promise, I won’t mess this up again.”
For the first time in weeks, I don’t feel any doubt at her words. I just hear truth.
I rest my chin on her shoulder and breathe in the fruity scent of her shampoo.
This is it, the line in the sand. The one I’m choosing to draw and step over to leave what’s done in the past and move forward.
“I love you too,” I murmur.
Time stands still for a fraction of a second.
And then Fiona starts shaking in my arms.
I don’t realize she’s crying until I take her face in my hands and find her cheeks damp with tears.
I brush my thumbs over her cheeks. “That wasn’t meant to make you cry.”
She tries to wipe them away with her sleeve. “These are happy tears. I just… Cormac, sometimes it feels like I can’t survive without you.”
“Then it’s a good thing I’m not going anywhere.”
I take my time peeling Fiona’s clothes off her body, making sure to kiss every inch of skin as I expose it. Once she’s standing fully naked in front of me, I stand back and let her do the same.
It’s more intimate than any other time we’ve been together.
I’ve never let her touch me like this, but it feels right to give myself over to her fully.
I savor the feeling of her hands as she runs them over my shoulders and chest.
I groan when she drops to her knees to pull down my pants and leans in to lick along my cock.
Seeing her gaze up at me with wide eyes as she takes me into her mouth is enough to shatter me completely.
“What a fucking sight you are.” I sink my fingers into her hair and slowly thrust my hips.
She takes all of me without complaint, keeping her eyes locked on mine the entire time, just how I like it.
But this is not the time for me to be selfish. I want to show her that I mean it when I said I loved her, and I can’t do that when she’s on her knees.
I stroke her cheek as she continues to suck. “Let me take you to bed, Fi. Let me show you how much I love you.”
She slowly slides her mouth off my cock and gets to her feet.
Her lips are swollen and wet, and I eagerly pull her against me and devour her mouth.
Her arms wrap around my neck, and I lift her into my arms, never breaking the kiss as I carry her over to the bed and settle myself on top of her.
I stare into her shining blue eyes as I slowly sink my cock inside her, groaning at how incredible she feels. I savor the way her nails claw at my back as I slowly pump my hips or the way her back arches when I dip my head to kiss along her breast.
Somehow, this time feels different than all the others.
