I wouldn’t ask her because I understood exactly how she felt.
I felt the same way when she was with me.
Always had.
Probably always would.
“Are you telling me that being with me eases the pain of your past?” I asked gruffly.
Christ!I hoped she saidyesbecause I really didn’t want to know what it would be like to live without her anymore.
For the first time in my life, I actually felt alive.
I wasn’t just existing.
Hell, this was probably what happiness felt like, and I was getting addicted to feeling this way.
“Yes,” she said softly. “You make me very happy, Asher.”
My chest tightened as I replied. “I have no idea why. I’m kind of an asshole.”
“You’re the most amazing man I’ve ever known,” she said solemnly.
What was I supposed to say to that?
I was grateful that she thought so, but in my mind, I still needed to prove myself to be the man she deserved.
I’d spent my entire life being selfish and solo.
For the first time in my life, I wanted that solitude to end.
“I’m going to make you want to stay with me,” I told her roughly.
She turned between my legs so she could wrap her arms around my neck. “I’m not planning on going anywhere,” she said lightly. “But you need to know that I can never get pregnant and have a child, Asher. Too much damage was done for that.”
“I’m good with that,” I answered immediately. “I’ve never wanted a child.”
I felt her warm breath on my face as she moved closer. “Can we forget about the past and focus on right now?” she asked.
I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her into my lap until she was straddling me.
Hearing about her past had nearly killed me.
I was definitely okay with focusing on right now.
Sierra
Ifroze for a fraction of a second after Asher pulled me into his lap.
I was straddling him, and that was something we’d never done before.
I’d assumed he didn’t care for that position because it required giving up some of his control, and that had always been fine with me.
It definitely wasn’t something I’d ever done before, and I had no clue how to satisfy myself or a man this way.
“Asher?” I queried softly. “Are you sure you’re okay with this?”
“Baby,” he drawled in a low, sexy voice. “Your gorgeous tits are in my face right now. I couldn’t be better.”