Page 115 of I Dare You
I am helpless to Kit Rivers.
Kit places one of my legs around his tapered waist, opening me up to him like a flower in bloom.The intensity of his mouth and tongue has me digging my heel into his back, needing an anchor.
He is relentless, never giving me a reprieve.I’m straddling the line between pleasure and pain.His stubble grazes me in just the right way.His breath is warm.I quiver, squeezing my eyes shut.
“I can’t get enough of your taste.I can’t get enough ofyou.”
His words, coupled with his actions, have me placing my hands on his cheeks and lifting his face as I confess, “I want you…all of you.”
I don’t know if this is the right way to phrase it, but I need him to know that I’m okay with this.And more.
“Are you sure?”His voice is heavy with desire.
“Yes.I want you.Now, and always.”
He moves up my body, planting kisses along the way.
He opens a drawer on the bedside dresser and rummages around.“Fuck,” he says after a few moments.
My heart drops.“Did I do something wrong?”
“No, no,” he quickly assures me.“I thought I might have a condom in here, but I don’t.”
It’s reassuring to me that he doesn’t keep them on hand.I thought with his reputation, that he would, and that’s the reason I say, “It’s okay.I still want to, though.”
He doesn’t say a word.
Sensing his hesitation, I press my lips to his.“It’s your body, your touch, I want to remember.Not theirs.I want you to be the only memory I have.”
Kit exhales deeply.“If I do anything that makes you uneasy or if you want me to stop, please let me know.”
I nod quickly, nerves soon rising.
But I quash them down because I want this.I appreciate Kit’s words and kindness.It reassures me that I’m making the right choice.
He brushes the hair from my cheeks tenderly.Although I can’t see him, I can feel the love radiating from him.
It wraps me in a warm embrace.
I don’t know what to do with my arms and legs because when it comes to lovemaking, I’m a virgin.My virginity was stolen, but this still feels like my first time.
Kit positions himself between my legs and places my arms over his shoulders so I’m holding him tight.He kisses my lips, gently coaxing me to open my legs a little wider.
Suddenly, horrible memories assault me, and my entire body freezes.
Kit reads my response right away.“It’s just you and me.I promise I’ll always be there for you.You won’t be alone.Never again.We can stop.There’s no rush.We have…forever.”
His promise touches me in ways I never imagined, which is why I bow my hips, encouraging him to enter me.
We both hiss.
He sinks into me slowly, allowing me to adjust to his size and the sensation of being united.Inch by inch, he enters me.It hurts, but it hurts so good.
We remain motionless, each of us cherishing this completely perfect moment.It’s one I’ll never forget.I’ll remember his smell.The weight of his body against mine.His heart beating frantically against my chest.
Above all, I’ll remember feeling safe.
“Can I move?”he asks, his breath warm against my cheeks.
