Page 32 of Numb: Poetic's Pain
I had beenin a good mood and the nightmares were still there, but they weren’t happening every night. I found myself talking more and more about my past and it seemed to be helping. I had been spending time with Tatum, Dashawn and his family. I wasn’t even going to lie, I needed this. It really made life feel so much better. Dashawn had called me the other day and he told me he had a conversation with his mama. He said it was hard, but it was needed. I just don’t know if I made it that far yet. I told Dr. Barrel that I may think about it in the near future but not right now. She said that was fine because she had already seen some progress and she was happy for me. Hell, I had even considered Tatum and I making it official but it had only been a month and some weeks. How would folks view us, was I moving too fast? Will my past mess with our relationship? So many things came to my mind and it always made me hesitate. One thing remained the same though, I was definitely feeling her and wanted to always spend time with her.
“Hey boss, do you need me for anything else?” Ms. Trish asked.
“No Ms. Trish I’m good.”
“OK, and I made sure there was plenty of fruit for your lady friend.” She smiled referring to Tatum.
“Thank you Ms. Trish I’m sure she will be happy about that.”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Yeah sure, Ms. Trish.”
“Do you like her?” Ms. Trish smiled. I loved her and she had been the only mother figure in my life since me and my mama separated and I loved her for that.
“I do Ms. Trish, I actually think she’s the one.”
“Good, I’m happy for you. Just be honest with her at all times and allow her to love you and be strong for you on days you can’t. You come with a lot of baggage Poetic so it won’t be easy for her, but don’t push her away and you two will be just fine.” Ms. Trish said while pulling me in for a hug.
“Thank you so much Ms. Trish for everything. I mean it from when I was younger til now. I know you wanted to help me when I was younger, but my mama stopped you. I love you and Jasper for all you both have done for me. You’ve two been around the longest and know everything, but never turned your back on me or even used my hurt for money and I’ll truly do anything for the both of you as long as I live.”
“There is no need for you to thank me, I feel like I should have said something back then. I watched you hurt and I carried that guilt for years.”
“I understand why you did what you did and if you would have said something who knows where I would have ended up and who would have been there to help me. You practically raised me because my mama couldn’t face me because of what she did.” Ms. Trish and I were both in tears; we held each other for what seemed like forever until we heard a ring for the main gate.
“I’ll go let her in and you go get cleaned up.” Ms. Trish said referring to Tatum since she was on her way over we knew it was her. I had sent all my staff home and Ms. Trish was on her way out. So, me and Tatum would be alone. I hurried and went to the bathroom that was down from the sitting room. I washed my face then made my way to the dining room where I knew Ms. Trish was walking Tatum. When I made it there Tatum was standing there looking beautiful like always.
“Hey, you,” she spoke with a huge smile on her face.
“I’m going to head out if you don’t need me for anything else.”
“I’m good Ms. Trish, I’ll see you in the morning.” Ms. Trish left us and I turned my attention to Tatum. I walked over to her and pulled her in for a hug. I then looked her in the eyes and kissed her lips. To my surprise she kissed me back and now our tongues were intertwined. We kissed for what seemed like forever until she pulled away.
“Mmm… what did I do to deserve that?” She smiled.
“I’ve been missing you all day.”
“I’ve been missing you too.”
“Are you hungry? Ms. Trish cooked dinner before she left oh and she got you some more fruit.”
“Yeah I can eat, let me go get cleaned up.”
“OK, I’ll have it at the table when you get back.” I said while leaning in to kiss her forehead. Ms. Trish had made us some stuffed salmon, bake potato, and broccoli. After I fixed our plates I sat them on the table got us a bottle of wine and some glasses.
“This looked good.” Tatum said entering the dining room. I walked around the table to pull the chair out for her. Once she sat down I pushed her chair in and then kissed the top of her head before I headed back around the table to sit down. I didn’t know where all this affection shit came from, but the way she was smiling she likes it just as much as I do. I grabbed her hand and said grace then we started eating.
“So, how was work?”
“It was ok Josh keeps pestering me about a story, but I don’t have anything until our story drop. I’ma need him to be patient.”
“Have you told him about it?”
“No, I don’t trust anyone with this. He will find out the day I air it. How was your day?”
“It was ok, me and Dashawn did an episode for the series. It should be ready to air next month. The plan is to be able to air the whole first series with eight episodes. The finale being the one that’s about us.”
“That’s good to hear. How have you been feeling lately with all of this going on?”
