Page 196 of Daddy's Trust
She grimaced. “Yes, but it’s not a big deal.”
Cash raised his eyebrows. “How is that not a big deal?”
“Because I just don’t think it is. I think it’s embarrassing to get to my age and never have sex. Mind you, I could hardly ever talk to men, so it’s no surprise. Who wants someone who can barely speak?”
“I don’t know. I think you’d be surprised by how many people would like that.”
Was he making a joke? Was he coming back to her?
Relief filled her. It wasn’t that she’d been scared of dark Cash. It was just, well, she didn’t want him to be like that all the time. Mostly, she was scared for him.
Addie held out her hand to him. “Please come sleep with me. We can just sleep if you want.”
“That won’t be happening if I come into that bed with you. Go have a shower, baby.”
Disappointment flooded her, but she nodded and walked away.
Cash tooka gulp of his beer as he sat on the balcony of the hotel room. He’d grabbed a quick shower in Ralen’s bathroom while the other man had been making a call. The sliding door opened and Ralen stepped out.
He had a beer with him. There was also food on the table, but the girls hadn’t made an appearance.
“What are you doing out here?” Ralen asked. “Why aren’t you in with Addie?”
“Need some time to come down,” Cash said. Or maybe it was come up from the depths of hell he’d sunk to. It wasn’t that he felt guilty over what he’d had to do tonight. That guy deserved it. However, that didn’t make it easier, and he still had to set aside the part of Cash that was a brother and a friend and a Daddy, and become ruthless Cash. Tonight was worse because he hated that Addie had been tainted by that part of him.
They’d left Limpy with a friend of Butch’s, and he hoped like hell the guy was trustworthy. That he didn’t betray them. But Butch had backed him, so it was going to be on him if he did.
They paid him enough not to, anyway.
“Best thing I ever found to come back into myself is sex,” Ralen told him.
“Yeah, well, that’s a certain type of sex, isn’t it? Wouldn’t trust myself right now with Addie. She doesn’t deserve that. We’ve barely even kissed. She’s not experienced. I’m not going to risk harming her.”
“Yeah, I guess I get that.” Ralen glanced behind him into the huge living area of the penthouse apartment. “But it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t need you.”
Cash turned to see her standing there in an oversized T-shirt they’d picked up at a tourist shop on the drive here. Dotty had run in and grabbed a few things with Ralen so they’d have something to sleep in.
All of the tops hadLas Vegaswritten on them. Addie’s was a charcoal gray. It was so long that it came down to the middle of her thighs. But Jesus, that left the rest of her legs bare. He hadn’t paid much attention to her legs before, and he could feel his cock pushing against his jeans.
Getting up, he walked to the door and stepped into the living room. “What’s wrong, Stowaway?”
He forced his voice to sound gentle, even if he didn’t feel at all that way. There was a husky rasp to it that wasn’t usually there.
She pressed her hands together. “I can’t be by myself right now. I just keep thinking about everything that happened, or everything that could happen. My mind goes over and over it.”
Shit, Ralen wasn’t wrong. She did need him. He was just going to have to control himself.
Nodding, he walked toward her and took her hand, leading her back to the bedroom. Then he shut the door behind them. She stood in the room with her arms wrapped around herself, trembling slightly.
Fuck.
She didn’t look like she was in a good way. He leaned back against the door and opened his arms.
“Come here, baby.”
She shook her head.
Now, that wasn’t a good idea. Right now, in order to keep himself under control, he needed tohavefull control. Which meant that she had to obey him.
