“I’ll never force you, Sofia. Never. What we just did only happens when you want it to.”
She nods, pressing her face against my chest. “I know.”
I hold her, running my fingers through her hair. I have kept my promise to her mother for eight years. What I didn't account for is that somewhere along the way, keeping her safe stopped being the promise and started being the only thing I wanted for myself.
“I’ve got you. Sleep.”
“You said that. That night. You said you got me.”
“I do. I will always take care of you. Now sleep.”
I continue to stroke her hair until I feel her breathing even out.
Only then do I let myself think about what just happened.
Would Elena approve? Would she be disappointed in me for having sex with her daughter? I promised to protect Sofia, but I have a feeling Elena didn’t mean this.
Having her in my arms, in my bed, is both everything I wanted and nothing like I imagined.
This is dangerous territory I swore I’d never enter.
I can protect her from Yuri.
I’m not sure I can protect her from me.
21
Sofia
I wake up knowing exactly where I am.
That's the strange part. No disorientation. No panicked second where I have to inventory my surroundings and figure out if I'm safe. I just know. The sheets smell like him. A delicious spicy aroma with a hint of cedar that I snuggled up against all night. For so long, that scent has taken me back to that night, but it never brought terror. I never understood why until last night.
That was the scent of salvation.
I'm in Sergei Sokolov's brownstone, and I slept eight uninterrupted hours for the first time in weeks. In. His. Arms.
I lie still for a moment and let myself be annoyed about that.
I feel the tenderness between my legs. Feel the whisker burns against my chin. I feel him all over me.
And I don’t hate it.
I stare at the high ceiling from my position in the massive bed. There's a painting on the wall I didn't notice last night. Abstract.Dark blues and greens, expensive-looking but not showy. I think about what it means that a man like him chose that painting. The first thing he sees every morning.
It must have meaning.
Then I tell myself I'm not doing that. I'm not reading into his art choices and trying to make him something he’s not.
He’s still a dangerous rival.
And my husband.
Oh, and the man that saved me three years ago.
It’s hard to put all of that together.
I decide not to try before I’ve had some serious caffeine.