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“Get some rest,” Gael whispered into the quiet.
He moved to the doorway, intending to leave, to return to the living room, to pour a drink and process the cold fury those scars had ignited in him. But his feet stopped on the threshold.
He turned back.
His gaze went to the bed, to the dark shape beneath the duvet. He watched the slow, deep rhythm of Samuel’s breathing, the slight rise and fall of the blankets.
The conflict within him raged.
On one side: the cold, analytical drive. The predator. The part of him that saw a fascinating, broken puzzle. The part that recognized the deep trauma in those scars and understood, with chilling clarity, how it could be mapped, how the fractures could be used to elicit the profound surrender he had already tasted. That part wanted to catalogue, to experiment, to own the mechanism of Samuel’s breaking.
On the other side: something raw, startling, and far more dangerous. The protector. It was a primal surge, a need to stand between this vulnerable, wounded creature and any further harm. It was a fierce, quiet vow forming in the silence: No one will make a mark on him again.
Except me.
He watched for a long time, until the lines between observer and guardian began to blur. Finally, with a slow sigh that felt like the release of a tension he’d carried for years, he made a decision.
Chapter 17
Samuel
Consciousness returned in slow, disjointed pieces.
First, a deep, muscular ache; a persistent throb low in his ribs, a dull counterpoint to a sharper sting across his palms. Then, warmth. The air against his face was cool, but the weight on top of him was solid, real.
He opened his eyes.
The world was a blur of soft, granular grey. He blinked, his eyelids gummy with sleep. The grey resolved into slats of light and shadow.
Blinds.
He was looking at window blinds, but they were wrong. The ones in his apartment were cheap, plastic, warped with age. These were sleek, metallic, perfectly aligned, cutting the weak morning light into precise, even bars.
He turned his head slowly on the pillow. The movement sent a fresh, bright spark through the ache in his side. The pillowcase was cool and smooth against his cheek, the sensation foreign. Itsmelled faintly of lemon and something else; a clean, arid scent, like stone after rain.
Not his soap. Not his bed.
He stared at the wall beside him. It was a muted, grey-washed wood, stretching to a ceiling that seemed higher, smoother. There was a dresser. Low, minimalist, made of the same pale wood. Nothing sat on its surface. No dust. No clutter.
Confusion, thick and syrupy, clouded his mind. This wasn't his room.
A hotel?He tried to remember checking in, but the memory was a black hole. The ache in his ribs pulsed, making him grit his teeth.
He shifted under the weight of the covers, trying to sit up. He pushed the duvet down, the fabric whispering a sound of pure, expensive quality. He looked at his own body.
He was wearing sweatpants. Soft, heather-grey. And a black t-shirt. They were clean, but they were not his. His own pajamas were cheap cotton, worn thin. These were thick, plush, and they hung on him in a way that suggested they were made for someone with a broader chest, longer arms. He brought the collar of the t-shirt to his nose and inhaled, tentatively.
The clean, lemon-stone scent was stronger here, mixed with the faint, ghostly trace of a detergent he didn’t know. And underneath it, something else. A darker, spicier note that tickled a deep, instinctual part of his brain.
Sandalwood.
The memory seeped in, like cold water through a crack.
A dark street. The taste of fear, metallic in his mouth. A hand shoving him. The headlights; twin suns blinding him. A silhouette kneeling. Strong hands. A voice, low and sure. The smell of sandalwood and warm wool as he was lifted. The blur of a car interior. A bright bathroom. The touch of antiseptic wipes. And then… the feeling of his shirt being peeled away. The chill on his back. The sudden, paralyzing understanding that he was exposed. Not just his bare skin, but the history written on it. The silver lines, his private ledger of shame, were no longer private.
Gael.
The sleek apartment, the scent on the clothes; it all coalesced into a single, horrifying truth. He was in Gael Wise’s home. He had slept in Gael Wise’s bed. He was wearing Gael Wise’s clothes.
