Page 84 of Guardian
God.Don’t think about that now.
Anyway.Liam’s cock is something I don’t ever want to get out of me.It’s so intense.And so, so good.
He groans and pulls at the ties I attached to his wrists.Does he want to touch me, or is he trying to get away?
“If you use your safe word, I’ll stop,” I remind him the way he reminded me.I don’t bother with the second part, the part where he told me if I safed-out, then everything would stop, and I would have to leave.
I’m leaving anyway.Like he wants me to.
Through the pale sliver of moonlight on his face, I can tell that his lips are pressed into a thin line, his jaw set and stubborn the way it always is.Why is that so freaking hot?
My ass meets his pelvis, my balls resting lightly on his stomach, and I can’t hold back my satisfied groan.It hurts, but it’s a good hurt.Intense.
This is exactly what I wanted.
I bounce a little, feeling the satisfying ache that fills me every time I try to get him a little bit deeper.A quiet sort of growling groan comes out of his throat.
“Is this what you wanted too, Daddy?Did you want to fuck me, but you were too afraid?Or are you too stubborn to use your safe word?”
He answers me with a defiant glare.The hope inside me still wants him to want me back.This new, angry darkness in me feels somewhat gratified at the idea of taking the thing he refused to give me even when he had me at his mercy.
I’d stop if he asked, but he won’t.I know he won’t, like I wouldn’t.Because I wanted everything from him, even if I couldn’t say so.
“Now who’s the one tied down and helpless?”
Still no answer.
I lift up, slowly at first.Carefully, because I’ve seen porn where the top pulls out too far and can’t get back inside, and I’ve never liked the way it seems to kill the momentum.This train needs to keep rolling because this is probably my only chance.
“Ravi…”
He doesn’t finish.Is he saying my name because he’s turned on?Is it a protest?
“See, if we had a normal relationship, I’d know what you wanted,” I say.“I’d know exactly how to make you feel good.Since you’re being all stubborn and lying there looking like you’ve got your lips glued together, I’m going to have to guess.Or I’m going to have to do what feels good to me and hope you like it too.”
I like that option better.
Guessing only ever leaves me confused.
So after a few tests, some slow slides where I figure out how much to pull off him and how fast to sink down, I find a rhythm that works.An angle that hits my prostate just right.
“Oh, fuck, Liam.Daddy, you feel so fucking good.”My words aren’t enough, but they’re all I have right now.“This is exactly what I hoped for, you know?For my first time to be with someone like you.For it to be sexy and memorable.”I lean forward to kiss him when I sink down again.“Some of the guys have some real first-time horror stories, you know?Simon said his first didn’t even know to bring lube.At least now I know, whatever happens in the future, I’ll always have this.”
That seems to piss him off.He punches his hips upward, but I keep my legs clamped right against him.Like that time at summer camp when I learned to ride a horse.
Save a horse, ride a man, right?I saw that on a T-shirt once.
“You feel as good as I thought you would,” I tell him.“No.”I grind down on him again.“You feel even better.I used to fuck myself down the hall in my bedroom and pretend that dildo was you, but it’s like you said—plastic and silicone can’t hold a candle to the real thing.”
His chest and abs ripple, expanding and contracting in quick staccato motions.His nostrils flare.He’s fucking me harder now, thrusting his hips up as much as he can with the limited range of motion.It’s hard and fast, though, almost as angry as I feel, and so aggressive I need to brace my hands on his chest to keep myself steady.
It hurts.He’s stretching me too fast.His hip bones bruise me with every jab.It’s so, so good.
“Is this what you wanted, kid?”He fucks up harder.It’s no longer me sliding up and down.It’s like Liam’s one of those fuck machines, and I’m holding on for the ride.
What a ride it is.
“Not exactly.”There’s a buzz inside me; the one that tells me my orgasm is building.I squeeze my muscles around him, strangling him, wanting to hurt him and urge him on at the same time.“What I wanted was for you to want to keep me, Liam.But if this is all I get, then this is what I’ll take.I’ll make sure you remember me every time you jerk off for the rest of your life.”
